I Should Be The Villain, Right?

"Waaa...." I don't know why I suddenly crying but I can't control it. I'm pretty sure that I already died because of the road accident. I tried to save a little child who run on the road, without any supervise from the parent.

I am a man that values manner and a righteous citizen. Even though I'm not a super hero, but I still helping people with my own way. I like helping people so I always do it if i have any opportunity. During the school day, my friend nicknamed me 'Sebastian', because I like doing chore and casually helping others like a butler. I also volunteer myself helping the student council, and I really enjoyed it. After I graduate from my high school, I joined in humanities organization as a volunteer to help people in trouble. That's why I still a jobless person, doing a 'freeter' work to support myself after my parents death. I was raise by my single mother after my father died early. Well, actually my dad were killed by his yandere sister, after knowing my dad married my mom. She is the extreme bro-con case, went to oversea for further studies, didn't know about my dad and mum relationship at first. After my mum knock up by my dad, he announce to his family that he want to marry my mother. The whole family are celebrating the news as they heard about the possibility of getting a heir, inform the yandere sister without expecting the incident will happened. My mother died right after I entered the high school, because of the heart illness. The image of my dad sister is quite scary. She been caught by the officer, but didn't punished to death because the psychology thing.

My mum was effected by that incident. She burdened with responsibility for rising me alone, as my dad family thrown us away from their house. That's was the result after being blamed by my dad family about the murder incident. My mum and myself been held responsible for the action of my aunt, that became insane and also the death of my father. They accuse us having a bad luck and will cursing their families if we still living with them.

Adding the fuel to fire, my mother family side also didnt help us, moreover chased out my mum without any shred of sympathy. As for main reason, they feel shamed because of my mother pregnancy. My mom side is quite orthodox and never accepted the pregnancy with marriage. So, I have born without father, and named as a son of the bitch. My mum moving to small city, which I staying before I died, rising me as a single mother.

Even she endure suffering for rising me, she never give up and always been kind. Luckily my mom quite beautiful so she work as a hostess to support us. My mum never get mad or scold me because I am the main reason she had to struggle for living like this.

Even though there are gentleman offering her a marriage to support us, she never accept it. For her, my father is only the man that she married in this lifetime. Her spirit and hardworking makes me feel that I also want to became a useful person in the future. So, I train myself to always open my hand in order to help others like my mum raise me unconditionally. After she died, I continued helping others as my mother always said, a kindness a key to happiness. When people smile, your heart warmth. I manage to handle my life after her gone because of the insurance money that I get from her death. I spend it wisely, never waste it as this is the last present to me from her.

Forget about that past of me. Let's talk about other things. Even though I always busy doing the volunteer work, I still have a hobby, reading the web novels in my free time. I enjoyed reading the story about a overpowered goblin that reincarnated to other world after died alone. I also read the story about an other world blacksmith, but shame, the author doesn't update the novel anymore. I cant afford to buy books so the free site web like a heaven gift for me. My smartphone that I using right now to access the site is the present from my charities organization. Well, it's only a old model and second hand one, donated by the riches. They give me it free as an appreciation for my active service.

In the stories that I read, most of the villain are rich and live comfortably without care of the world. Well, that typical villains are base on wuxia novels, as the bad character always been pampered by his family, this live arrogant and never care about other feeling. If the antagonist got injured, his father or grandfather will get revenge for him.

I detest the bad guys anyway. I always support the protagonist who when through the trouble and suffer that bought by the evil person. The protagonist eventually risen his status and became a great hero, court the heroin everywhere. Good ending. But, what about the reality?

Maybe because of my kindness, I'm living in poverty. Even though I not being bullied, but no one really care about me. I didn't ask for reward but at least a little thanks will do. That also the reason why I am a loner, even though I am quite active in socialize program and not a NEET. As wise people said, "After all, the rich get richer and the poor get children. Which is okay so long as lots of them starve in infancy." ― John Brunner, The Shockwave Rider.

At the end, my life ended before I reached 30, also because of my kindness. But why I still alive? Crying aloud with care of this world. Suddenly, my body been lifted by someone. In front of me, an old person, I think a midwife, held me up and send me to young women, I guess my mother. She showing her boob to me and I suck it unconsciously. My hunger make me greedily suck the milk. After I got full drinking the delish milk, the midwife help me burped and place me to my special bed. I guess I have been reincarnate to other world. I hit the jackpot huh?

By the way, i remember some sentence in web novel that I read; when you send into other world, chant 'Status'

"Status!" I said it in baby language. (Aaa uuus)

Name : Wu Tian ( 0 year old )

Race : Human

Level : 1

HP : 10/10

MP : 1/1

Strength : 1

Dexterity : 1

Wisdom : 1

Agility : 1

(Skill)

None

(Ability)

Other world knowledge

Language Comprehension

You kidding me right. I'm so weak?!