03.15 Errand boy
Before this day, I was nervous whenever I heard something related to the army. My mind would try to retain as much as possible, to collect as much information as I could, so I could present it to the organization. It's insulting to me if I am insincere about something I decided to do in the first place. It's one thing if my decision changes, but as long as I am in the same lane, I want to follow it with all I have got. I don't think it's right to be insincere and let go of my responsibility. So even now, I have no intention of giving up on the organization.
It's become a lot easier to learn things now, because I am no longer nervous about being caught. The worse has already happened. But I don't want to just go around and announce it. The Captain is a different case. The rest of the people won't treat a rebel that nicely. However, I am certainly more confident now, all thanks to the Captain. It's not like I got many opportunities to collect information.