PROLOGUE

Sometimes, you ask yourself if everything you have done until now was truly worth it. Rather than believing until the end in your belief, sometimes you need to stop, and you must take the time to ask yourself: What have i done? What am I doing?

Looking at the Colossal Titan slowly smashing the sourthern wall of Shiganshina with his feet, I wonder if I made the right choice in this life. All I can see are Titans rushing throught the hole, the population terrified running like madmen, and the dust covering the streets. All I can hear are the screams, the debris from the wall landing brutally like meteors, my heart pounding faster and faster. This is obviously one of the worst day for humanity, a terrible event.

However, the madness and horror I am watching is from the perspective of someone outside the wall. Yes, I am outside the wall. For I am a sinner and a monster.

"Kali, stop dreaming. We have to hurry or else..."

"Oy, just shut up Annie. I know already what to do"; I reply to the annoying girl at my left, stopped in my thoughts.

Well, at least I now have my mind clear. With a hint of anger in her eyes, Annie, a girl with blond hair and what looks like a broken nose, glare at me before heading to the wall. I may seem unconcerned with the chaos inside the walls, but, in reality, I am slighty shivering, but not out of fear. No, I am at the same time excited and nervous. Well, I am sorry, but it can't be helped, after all people are dying everywhere because of 'us'.

"Fuck, Kali, dont forget your purpose"; I mutter to no one in particular, while Annie looks at me hopelessly.

That's right. Watching the Colossal Titan retreating, I recall what I must protect. Annie Leonhart, Reiner Braun, and Berthold Hoover. At first, I didnt care about anything, as I had to survive at all costs. Having some friends? There was no need for this bullshit. Only the strong can live, and friends were a sign of weakness. Alone, I could do anything.

However, my mindset has drastically changed. Little by little, I learned more about them, their story, their shitty personality, their funny antics. Right now, they are my comrades, they are my friends. Even though I would never tell them, as my pride wouldn't allow it to happen.

"Well, it seems Berthold is done with his tasks, so I guess Reiner should start operating"; Annie keeps talking with a huge strain in her face. "To avoid drawing the attention of the Titans, we have to use our Titan form until we reach the survivors and successfully infiltrate inside the walls."

Nodding at her statement, I focus my gaze on the hole in the wall.

"Indeed, we should keep going. This is for the sake of our mission, for the sake of Marley. Let's go Annie."

I say all of this crap, but unlike my friends, I know that Eldian inside the walls aren't Devils, but unlucky people like us. As I know a part of the truth of this wicked world, I can't help but to shed a tear. I may be a battle junkie, but not an insensitive bastard. Nobody deserve being eaten alive or crushed like an ant. But this must be done. I too have to live, I too have friends I must protect.

So the only thing I can say is sorry.

Suddenly, I exchange glances with Annie, before biting my hand.

Sorry, people of Paradise, but I made my choice, so please die for my sake. Eren Yeager, here we come!