Episode 50

THE JESUS SLAY QUEENS 2

Episode 50

© Ayo Omolayo

"Lord I need you! I can't do without you. My world will be lost without you. You are the reason why I'm alive! Honestly, I don't believe I will be alive if not for your grace.

Daddy I've come to say a million thanks. But it's obvious that you would be absolutely correct if you choose not to say anything to me. I know I've broken your heart countless times and I don't deserve your forgiveness. But you said that whosoever would come to me, I will never send that person away.

And you went further to make me understand through your word, that you are not a liar. You said you are not a human being that you should tell lies. That means when you said whosoever, you were also referring to a filthy sinner like me. You didn't give specifications, you just said whosoever.

That alone has given me the assurance to stand before you, because you can hear me. For it is written in your word in the book of Hebrews 4:16. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

Come to think of it you didn't say I should come with shamefacedness. You said I should come with boldness to the throne of grace. So I have come Lord, just as your word had said. Wash me, cleans me, purify me, take away this guilt and stain.

And just as your word had spoken, cause me to be renewed in my inner man. Revive my soul from sin and cause your light to shine upon me."

I spoke this words with absolute faith. I knew feelings would come but I had learnt better never to anchor my feet on it. I wasn't expecting any form of feelings but it came anyway. Feelings are just the proof of how connected you are in the spirit. That's exactly what mommy taught us. So it just shows that I was completely undistracted.

A wave of coldness hit me all over my body. I myself to the ground in awe and reference of the Great King. Although the feelings were not my anchor anymore, but it swept me beyond words. I felt joy and an unexplainable peace. I craved for that voice, that voice that speaks the peace that passes human understanding.

That was when the voice came. That was when I began to understand that faith was all I needed. The joy was overwhelming, the peace unexplainable.

"JULIET!"

"Yes daddy!"

"JULIET!"

"Daddy!"

"JULIET!"

"Daddy daddy!" I replied smiling.

I could feel him smiling. This smile was genuine. Not as if there has ever been a smile that is not genuine. But this one means so much to me, especially now that I was not expecting him to smile. It was a clear sign of my forgiveness, earned by faith.

I just couldn't phantom how much it would feel to always put smiles on God's face. It will be my greatest pleasure henceforth. I will never fail to realise that's it was all his forgiving nature that brought me to where I am today.

And it is still that nature that will preserve me. I just want to make him happy, and he's going to make sure that is possible.

"SO JULIET, CAN YOU EXPLAIN WHY YOU HAVE BEEN A WAY FOR A WHILE? REMIND ME OF WHAT HAPPENED IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN? I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET SOMEBODY AND SOMEHOW I COULDN'T FIND THE PERSON. SO I STARTED LOOKING AROUND AND CALLING HIS NAME.

FUNNY ENOUGH, MY GUY SAW ME AND RAN AWAY. I STARTED CALLING HIM, BUT HE KEPT RUNNING. I BEGAN TO WONDER WHY HE WAS RUNNING. ON A NORM, WHEN MY GUY SEES ME, HE COMES RUNNING TO ME. BUT TODAY'S SUPER STORY WAS DIFFERENT. MY GUY SAW ME I STARTED RUNNING FROM ME.

I'M TRYING TO REMEMBER HIS NAME, CAN YOU PLEASE REMIND ME ?"

I started laughing as it dawned on me that daddy was referring to Adam.

"WHY IS SARAH LAUGHING?"

"Daddy, I'm not Sarah oooo!" I said admist laughter.

"BUT YOU ARE A DAUGHTER OF SARAH?"

"Sir I am a daughter, but I'm not her!"

"OKAY! SO CAN YOU HELP DADDY OUT BECAUSE DADDY IS STRUGGLING TO REMEMBER."

"Daddy, you're referring to Adam."

"OH! THAT'S MY GUY THAT SAW ME AND STARTED RUNNING FROM ME! CAN YOU REMIND ME WHY HE WAS RUNNING? I THOUGHT WE WERE BEST FRIENDS. SO WHAT WILL MAKE MY FRIEND TO SEE ME AND START RUNNING AWAY FROM ME? WAS IT BECAUSE I LOOKED SCARY? OR WAS THERE SOMETHING ABOUT ME THAT WAS SCARY? WHY WOULD I BE LOOKING FOR SOMEONE I HAD AN ENGAGEMENT WITH?"

"Daddy he was afraid. He did something he was not supposed to do. He broke your heart and he felt he was naked before you. He knew your eyes were to hold it will behold iniquity. He knew that you were righteous God. And lastly, a new that she would never be able to win your trust again or expect anything good from you.

To the best of my understanding, that is the reason why he left."

"YEAH, YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY CORRECT. BUT FUNNY ENOUGH MY GUY WAS NAKED AND HE NEEDED ME. NOT JUST THAT YOU NEEDED ME, HE NEEDED TO BE CLOTHED. BUT HE THOUGHT RUNNING AWAY FROM ME WAS THE SOLUTION TO HIS PROBLEMS. HE THOUGHT HE HAD ALL THE ANSWERS. BUT THE FIGS HE SEWED TOGETHER, COULD NOT COVER HIS NAKEDNESS.

THIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN THE PROBLEM OF MAN. WHEN A MAN BREAKS GOD'S HEART, THE FIRST THING HE WANTS TO DO IS RUN. THE NEXT THING HE WANTS TO DO IS TO TELL GOD HOW UNDESERVING HE IS. THE NEXT THING HE WANTS TO LET GOD KNOW, IS THAT IS GOOD FOR NOTHING.

BUT THE PAINFUL THING ABOUT IT IS THAT GOD IS STILL THE SOLUTION TO THAT PROBLEM. SO MAN RUNS AWAY FROM GOD AND START LOOKING FOR FIG LEAVES. HE STARTS LOOKING FOR SO MANY MAN-MADE MEANS TO SOLVE THE ISSUE OF HIS SPIRITUAL NAKEDNESS. BUT FUNNY ENOUGH THE GOD HE RUNS AWAY FROM IS ACTUALLY ON THE ROAD LOOKING FOR HIM.

THE GOD HE FEELS SO UNWORTHY TO APPROACH IS LOOKING FOR HIM. FIG LEAVES DRY UP WHEN YOU PUT THEM ON IN THE MORNING. SO AFTER SEWING FIGS IN THE MORNING, MAN HAS TO LOOK FOR FIGS FOR THE EVENING. HE ALSO NEEDS TO LOOK FOR FIGS FOR THE NEXT DAY AND FOR THE NEXT, NEXT DAY. 

WHAT A LIFE OF ALWAYS PLUCKING FIGS! THERE ARE MANY BELIEVERS WHO ARE PLUCKING FIGS TODAY. THEY ARE SO IMPERFECT. THEY SIN OVER AND OVER AGAIN, SOMETIMES IMMEDIATELY AFTER PROMISING NEVER TO GO BACK TO IT AGAIN. THEY LOOK AT THEMSELVES AND SHAKE THEIR HEAD. I'M SO UNDESERVING! IF GOD SHOULD LOOK AT ME RIGHT NOW I GUESS HE'S THINKING OF THE BEST WAY TO SINK ME IN HELL. I DON'T THINK HE WOULD EVER WANT TO HAVE SOMETHING TO DO WITH A TERRIBLE PERSON LIKE ME

I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM STILL WASTING MY TIME TRYING TO SERVE GOD? I HAVE TRIED AND TRIED AND ALL I DO IS FALL AND FALL. IN FACT I THINK I NEED TO STOP TRYING.

THAT'S A BELIEVER PUTTING ON FIGS. HE HAS PUT ON FIGS AND THE MORE HE PUT ON FIGS THE MORE HE NEEDS TO PUT IT ON. BECAUSE, EVERY NOW AND THEN HE'S NAKED.

SO THE MORE HE IS PUTTING ON FIG LEAVES, THE MORE HE NEEDS TO SCOUT THE GARDEN OF EDEN TO LOOK FOR MORE LEAVES. IN THE LONG RUN, HE'S FRUSTRATED. HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. LIFE IS SUCH A HELL FOR HIM. HE LABOURS AND LABOURS TO BE CLOTHED, HE LABOURS AND LABOURS TO BE RIGHTEOUS, BUT TO NO AVAIL.

SO HE TELLS HIMSELF I HAVE TRIED MY BEST AND MY BEST IS NOT YIELDING ANYTHING. THEN HERE COMES GOD. 'ADAM WHERE ARE YOU?'

GOD DON'T BOTHER LOOKING FOR ME, I'M NAKED! I'M FILTHY! I'M NO GOOD! I'M A WASTE OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME! I'M A WASTE OF DIVINE INVESTMENT! DON'T BOTHER LOOKING FOR ME, IT'S A WASTE! I'M FINE WITH MY FIGS! I WILL COPE WITH IT.

I'VE TRIED MY BEST AS YOU CAN SEE. I REALLY TRY TO DO ALL I CAN TO BE RIGHTEOUS AND TO BE CLOTHED. BUT IT'S NOT YIELDING ANY RESULTS. SO I'LL KEEP WORKING, ALTHOUGH I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING I NEED TO WORK ON ANYMORE BECAUSE I'M FED UP.

BUT AS FOR YOU GOD, DON'T BOTHER COMING AFTER ME. I WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO WASTE YOUR TIME. I WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO WASTE THE BLOOD OF YOUR SON. I WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH A DISAPPOINTMENT LIKE ME.

THEN IMAGINE GOD TELLING ADAM, WHO TOLD YOU YOU ARE NAKED? AND IN THE LONG RUN THE FIRST TAILOR ON EARTH THE FIRST PERSON TO SEW CLOTHES FOR MAN. GOD HAD TO KILL AN ANIMAL, PROCESS THE ANIMAL SKIN AND MAKE CLOTHES FOR MAN.

WHY WAS MAN TRYING TO SOLVE HIS PROBLEMS ALL BY HIMSELF? GOD I HAVE SINNED AGAIN. I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN. GOD I PROMISE YOU FROM THIS DAY FORWARD, YOU WILL SEE A BETTER VERSION OF ME.

AND AT THE END OF THE DAY, WE GET A WORSE VERSION. 

STOP TRYING TO COVER YOURSELF! COME NAKED! THERE'S GARMENT FOR YOU. I AM A TAILOR! I'M A GOOD TAILOR! I HAVE ALL THE MATERIALS THAT YOU HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR TO END YOUR MASTURBATION! I HAVE THE MATERIALS TO SEW THAT GARMENT THAT WILL CLOTHE YOU FROM THE NAKEDNESS OF SEXUAL IMMORALITY!

I HAVE THE MATERIALS TO MAKE THAT GARMENT THAT WILL CLOTHE YOU FROM THE NAKEDNESS OF PORNOGRAPHY. I HAVE THE GARMENTS THAT WILL CLOSE YOU FROM THE NAKEDNESS OF SPIRITUAL LUKEWARMNESS.

COME TO ME! OR YOU THAT HAVE LABELLED IN THE TAILORING SHOP. LABOURING TO SEW THE GARMENT. LABOURING TO BE PLEASING TO GOD AGAIN. LABOURING TO TRY TO WIN GOD'S TRUST AGAIN. LABOURING TO WIN GOD'S APPROVAL. LABOURING TO MAKE GOD LOVE YOU AGAIN.

COME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. I WILL CLOTHE YOU. I WILL COVER YOUR NAKEDNESS!"

I laid on the floor and wept before the King. This has been my life right from when I was little. I always felt undeserving. I always felt I had to labour for me to win God's trust. All this while I was only labouring to sew a garment. I never knew there was only one person who could give me the spiritual covering I needed.

So instead of me walking up to him and asking him to clothe me, I tell him to hold on, and begin to scout around for leaves to cover myself. What a futile mission? What a waste of precious time?

The worst part of it was this garment he was offering me was for free! Haaaaaaaa! I have seriously wasted my time running away from God. How can God be this merciful? He is so massive that when he sees us wasting our time he leaves his throne, comes down and starts looking for us.

Some Kings would sit down and say stuffs like. ' Let them waste their time!'

But my daddy is too loving to allow that. I love you Jesus! Thank you so much thank you for not giving up on me! Thank you for coming after me! For humbling yourself to pursue such a wretched person like me.

Indeed the way you chase me is seriously a sign of your humble nature. You're too busy and occupied to have my time. Yet, you came running after me! Thank you so much!

To be Continued.....

I love You, Lord

For Your mercy never fails me

All my days, I've been held in Your hands

From the moment that I wake up

Until I lay my head

Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

And all my life You have been faithful

And all my life You have been so, so good

With every breath that I am able

Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

I believe this episode was a message to someone!

Can you go ahead and appreciate God for humbling himself to our level, just to win us back. 

INSPIRED BY THE BREAD OF LIFE

WRITTEN BY AYO OMOLAYO

YOUR BROTHER IN CHRIST 🙏