9: Porn on the tv? REALLY?!! 18+

"You don't last long do you? It's only been a few minutes." I heard a snarky comment going into my bedroom after having a cry break with namjoonie telling him how much a really love Taehyung and his annoying smile that makes my day everytime trying to apologize for not being able to sleep with him, looking back I was being SUPER annoying and cringe but I was at my most vulnerable so I couldn't help it.

"Awww, are you jelly? Little bitch, we didn't fuck, nothing was inserted anyway." I chuckled naughtily wanting to see if he was actually jealous or if I was daydreaming, "Aww, you're a cryer, you need a hell loud of makeup just to cover up that disgusting face of yours on the daily. And now you need even more, you're all puffy and your eyes are red." Bitch fuck you, this is you fault.

"Ha, funny coming from a literal troll, and btws, your eyes are puffy too." I commented really hoping that he was actually crying while I was gone, "Calling me a troll? Look at your bedroom on its own, shit laying everywhere. You're closet is literally hanging open and I don't know what colour the floor is! It's so filthy."

"Oh, so that's why you're snooping through my things? Is cleaning your excuse?" I scoffed snatching my backpack from him, "No, I'm snooping. At first I was looking for handsoap and then found a whole entire collection of skin care products and hair care, which, by the way, aren't working. Then I wanted to see if you have any other interesting things, I was not disappointed."

"Found my flesh light collection or toy cars?" I asked, knowing he'd get flustered at the mention of sex toys which he did of course.

"W-what collection?..." Taehyungie asked with flushed cheeks, I just scoffed and walked past him to open my desk drawer, once he saw the amount of sex toys I have he became redder then a tomato.

"Help yourself, I only really like the blue one and don't often use the others. There's a travel size too." I smirked seeing him heat up even more, "Y-youre so disgusting!" He exclaimed putting his hands towards between his legs, "At least I'm not a slut that sleeps with anybody they can find instead of using safe toys." I mumbled to myself grabbing the exact blue one that I told him I use to put it in my bedside drawer.

"I've only ever given consent to one person...." He mumbled, I didn't mean to hurt him or blame him for being a slut, but now he seemed genuinely upset.

"Scoff, liar." I mumbled heading over to my couch to play some sort of video game, "I'm not lying!" He tried to convince, in return I went into onlyfans on the tv, I saw a horrified look on his face as I searched up the username, 'VictoryMin_9013.'

*Victory for V and Min for Ji-min and Jimin's birthday*

I played the first video that came up which was Taehyungie's butt being fucked in doggie, Jimin's skin surprisingly a lot lighter then Taehyung's.

"You like being fucked little bitch? Mm? Argh, you're such a slut." Jimin's beautiful voice made an appearance along with his teeny tiny little hand grabbing Tae's ass, "So? It's my body and I get to post it if I want to, it's not as if you don't post inappropriate pics on insta. That doesn't make me a slut and it doesn't guarantee that I sleep around, I'm faithful to my boyfriend." My heart stung at the word boyfriend, why does he get to call the pretty angel that?😭

"Faithful? Just two hours ago you were squirming beneath me." I scoffed started to get a boner again, "Do you remember me saying 'go ahead' 'dont worry I give you my consent' 'oh please violate me." My body froze hearing him say that, he's right, he never said anything like that. In fact he only ever told me praises or asked me to continue long after his omega instincts kicked in. Which means I have literally been violating and harassing him.

"You've only ever given consent to one person...." I repeated softly, I leaned my head back staring at the screen, Jimin was cumming onto Taehyung's butt, "Turn that off will you?!" I ignored him and kept watching, showing off another beautiful boner.

"Hey, turn it off!" Taehyung snatched the remote from me and exited the video, "And put that away!" He scolded causing me to look down at my dick, which was poking out of my sweatpants.

Instead of putting it away I got it out and started rubbing gently, I felt a sudden sting in my cheek and heard a loud slapping sound, "How are you so fucking stupid?! You're completely disgusting and perverted and now I'm forced to be married to you, god, I can't do this anymore why can't you just die already?! Go jump off a bridge."

"Jump off a bridge? Fine, whatever you want." I mumbled getting up and moving over to my closet to get a jacket then went over to my door, at this point I was holding back tears. Though I know hell bed me to stop before I actually jump and if he doesn't both of us are put out of our misery.

Just as I put my hand on the doorknob I felt a hug being forced onto me from the back, I pushed him away and continued to make my way to the nearest bridge.

"Stop im sorry! I got flustered that's all!" I heard Taehyungie shout at me trying to pull me back but I was already on my way downstairs, "Would you stop being so fucking pity?!" He exclaimed while I got my shoes on, "Pity? I'm just doing what you wanted." I said grabbing a note book and a pen then made my way to my car outside.

I got in and of course so did Taehyung, "Go on, you don't have the guts." Without even considering all the different bridges I went straight to Incheon Bridge, Tae was silent throughout the ride with crossed arms.

When we got there I parked out of the way from on coming traffic and started scribbling in the notebook, "Ha, see? Don't have the guts." Taehyung said but I ignored him.

"Hey, y'all are by far my best friends and I couldn't ask for anything better, I know a majority of the times I'm super annoying and hard to be around so I hope this isn't as hard as it would be if it were, Hobi hyung, for instance. I know I'm the youngest in the group but please don't be sad about loosing your baby, not all of you know about how hard it's been for me, going through the wedding and everything. And even less of you know about the depression and anxiety that I've been suffering for the last few years so this must come so suddenly, but it really wasn't you guys faults. You were what kept me going through so long but i just can't do this anymore, I love all you more then anything in the world and I truly hope you won't hate me for leaving you."

I wrote the death note and tore the page out of the notebook, I folded it in half and wrote, "Bangtan hyungs." Onto it, the name of our friend group, then I started writing a separate note.

"Mum, dad, I love you both so much, and you gave me the best life I could ask for. But evidently it's too much, you've tried your hardest to protect me from harm but two people could only do so much. I think that the wedding with Taehyungie was my breaking point, I didn't want to marry someone who didn't love me, and now everything's just so hard to live with. And I feel that as your youngest son you won't miss me all that much. But promise me that when you look at Bammie, the dog I forced you guys to get for me, you'll remember me. I love you both so much and I truly am sorry."

Again I tore the paper out and folded it on half, writing, "Eomma, Appa." on it, at this point I haven't said a word and Taehyungie snatched the letters away from me and started reading them. I didnt care much and just wrote my last letter, to namjoonie.

"Hyung, I just had a mental meltdown to you about this whole situation, so I feel like I don't need to explain it to you. All I really want to say is thank you, for always being there for me and protecting me like I was your real baby brother. You mean the world to me along with everything you've done for me, but you of all people should understand what I'm going through and why I would do this. Please don't hate me, I really do love you and you were enough to keep me alive, but as time grew thicker, so did the blood that's held up in my heart. I love you hyung, you're my best friend, you're my big brother and role model. I hope you stay as happy without me as you're with me, just remember, you're smile can cure cancer."

I felt Taehyungie looking over my shoulder reading along while I wrote, and as I tore the paper out and wrote Namjoonies name on it after folding it. Taehyung snatched the notebook and pen.

"What are you doing?" I asked confused while he wrote, "To seokjinnie hyung;"

"What? You don't want to use the same note book for our death notes?" "What?" I asked asked in a European accent making the 'w' an 'h',, "Well, since you want to jump, as your husband i have to as well."

"How does that make sense to you?"

"If. You. Want. To. Jump. I. Will. Too." He literally spelled it out for me, using hand signals and everything. I had a very clear stunned expression on my face he just continued scribbling on the notebook, I smiled to myself staring at him struggle to find words.

I had thought about this many, many times and knew exactly what I'd say to everybody who was important to me, but even though he had a much more abusive and controlled life he didn't seem to have ever thought about this before.

"You're as stubborn as ever, Kimmie," I sighed and started up my car to leave, I have no problem with jumping but I won't make him do it too, "Come on, do you want to get something to eat before we go home?" I asked starting to drive off, "See? Pussy," He scoffed and I quickly stopped my car already back in traffic, "Okey okey okey! Just drive." He scolded basically taking it back, I win💅

We went to grab some food at McDonald's and he literally forced me to buy a whole bunch of food for the rest of my family, he said it'd be lunch but I know it was because he felt bad for making my dad starve this morning.

Somehow nearly two hours had passed when we got back home and the minute we walked into the house we saw mum heading to the kitchen to make dad some lunch, I went upstairs after giving my mum the boxes of food I was carrying and saw her thanking me with a suspicious face heading towards the kitchen after calling dad.

"Namjoonie, we-" I stopped mid sentence hearing moaning coming from his bedroom, they were soft and held back but I could still hear them. I was about to leave and assume he was with someone but I stopped dead in my tracks when I heard him moan MY NAME.

I for some reason stopped to listen and got real close to the door to eavesdrop, "Ah, gasp ah! Oh god Jungkookie~" It felt like music to my ears hearing him moan my name like that, very gently I pushed the door open slightly hoping to dear god he doesn't see me.

I don't think he did because his eyes are facing away from me but I could see a big fat boner being palmed between the fingers of his right hand, a smirk crypt up my lips as I watched. All kinds of dirty things flooding my mind, and as expected I saw his dick releasing a bunch of white cum. I've been here for a while, just watching him jerk off to a video of me on his phone.

I noticed it first thing, he was scrolling through a camera fee, first I saw a video of me sleeping peacefully, second a video of me climbing a tree. At the time I had the fattest crush on Yoongi hyung and was trying to show off my butt but I ended up falling and breaking my head open, not literally, I was perfectly fine but I acted like I was dying just to get attention. Of course nobody actually believed I was injured because they know what I look like when I want attention but they still seemed to enjoy my cute fake cry.

After that he was rewatching a video of me in a swimming pool, I was wearing thin swimming shorts and had a boner because I was just in the changing rooms with a bunch of hot naked men playing and fooling around. I even had a dick sword fight with one of them, being as gay as I am it turned me on a lot even though I didn't know then very well.

But in the video you could basically see me in all my glory, I still remember Namjoon accidentally sending that video into a group chat with our friends instead of straight to me. It was really embarrassing at first but then Yoongi hyung commented saying he'd deffo get smashed by my dick cause it looked big, which it is but I will never let that comment go and have used it to win several pity arguments with the hyungs.

"You're so disgusting...." I heard Namjoon mumble, at first I thought he knew I was watching him but then he continued, "Masturbating to your own little brother who's in love with someone else...." Was hyung really serious about that? He said it was okey, he said he didn't mind why is he?....

Without thinking I busted down the door and acted as if I didn't hear anything, "Hyungie~ we're eatin- what're you doing?" My acting skills are superb~

Hyungie didn't even bother to put it away, he seemed to be in a daze until he heard me saying 'what're you doing?'

"Scoff, you left me without an orgasm, fuckhead! I was horny." He seemed annoyed at first but then started whining, he got up and walked over to me, I felt as small as i possibly could having him haver over me. He's a few inches taller them me and a lot buffer, not too much but he's deffo bigger.

"You said something about food?" He asked like a child, gotta say his acting is superb too, "I could take care of you firs-" I tried to offer but he hushed me, "I'm hungry." He smiled at me but I somehow thought it was fake, he was about to walk past me but I caught him by his chest, "Hyung, I could take care of you first...." I said a lot more seriously, I'm willing to do anything to please him at this point.

Yes, I thought that if I had sex with him I'd be cheating on Tae but he's literally sleeping with other men too, and I explained what I thought about the situation to hyung, "It's okey, I was so emotional earlier because it came very sudden and then I didn't know how to react so I said no and broke down. But, I'm ready now, hyung. Please, let me take care of you."

"Fuck, are you sure?" He asked taking my hand in his, I nodded, "Jungkookie, I don't want to take advantage of you and be selfish-" "You're not being selfish, you're taking advantage, but it's not selfish." I gently pulled him closer to me by his waist, I was just about to kiss him when Taehyung walked in, "Where are you- oh, come on, that can wait. Let's go eat." Taehyungie literally dragged me away and slammed the door before Namjoon could come out.

"What was that, Taehyung?" i asked with a smirk while Taehyung dragged me downstairs but I stopped midway threw the staircase, "I can't believe it, you're jealous!" I exclaimed happily grabbing his waist, "Don't touch me." He said trying to get my hand off but im stronger then him.

I kept him in my grip gently grinding myself onto his stomach, I buried my face into his neck to smell him, "Argh, you smell so fucking good, Tae. Oh my god~" I let out a breathey moan, and Taehyungie was quick to push me away when I least expected it and run downstairs yelling, "Mum! Jungkookie tried to force himself into me!" BiTcH tHe FuCk DiD yOu CaLl My MuM?!!