A long story

　　I pull the phone away from my ear but Maria keeps screaming like a banshee. The video of me hitting Olivia is all over BG and it is the highlight of her day. Maria says something I don’t hear and I grunt in reply. She’s excited but I am not. Not when Ben is upset. I think I fucked up this time. Big time.

　　Maybe I am being paranoid but I don’t think we will get better even after Ben cools off. I don’t want to think it’s over for us but it feels like it is. He picked her over me. To show his support, I guess. I swipe the back of my hand against my eyes. My eyes sting too much. I want to curl in bed and cry like a baby.

　　I end the call after a few more moments of false enthusiasm to Maria’s constant teasing. I can’t tell her about Olivia because Ben already feels like shit talking to me about it. I massage my temple to try and stop the growing headache. I feel like shit.