What was this?

Will

When did it get to this point? I do not know. It was installing itself inside me surreptitiously, and when I realized, Nate started to awaken feelings and sensations that I used to repress, he has the power to make me like an imbecile, completely attracted to him. At other times, I would never admit it, but now I can't hide it anymore, and after the kissing, and the flirting, and all this tension that hangs over us, it's inevitable, I'm in love. How did I fall in love with my co-star? I do not know. Maybe it's his manner, the way he smiles, his mouth, his eyes, his body. The combination of all these attributes, plus how good I feel next to him. I can no longer hide this feeling, not even from myself. Being in his room, so close and yet so far away, is very disturbing to my mind.