Heretic / 1.18 : Do I have feelings for him?

Kian woke up and rubbed his eyes. He looked up and gazed at the person holding him. After going to bed, Lucian came back, and they spent most of the night talking. They ended up falling asleep in each other's arms.

He never slept next to someone before. All his first are with Lucian, like his first kiss. Thinking about it, he looked at his lips. He thought he would try to kiss him again, but he didn't.

Kian feels a little anxious. What if he was a bad kisser, and now he doesn't want to anymore? That day, he was taken by surprise, and Lucian ended up kissing a statue. Plus, it was his first kiss. Isn't everyone bad during their first kiss?

Even if he feels trepidation at the idea of kissing again, he doesn't want Lucian not to want to do it. He reached out and caressed his lips softly. When Lucian opened his eyes, he pulled back his hand and looked at him wide-eyed.