Chapter 37: CIERRA

Oh shit! What have I done? I rolled to my back and just laid there in a daze, staring up at the ceiling with the feel of him still in me and on me. I had to get my head on straight and come up with a plan. I knew the repercussions for what I'd done, knew that I could very well lose everything I'd worked so hard for. "Oh you idiot." I covered my face with my hands as I berated myself.

I replayed everything from the moment he first climbed into my bed in the dark, until a few minutes ago when he left. I went from hot to cold and back in seconds and that cocoon disappeared to be replaced by sickening fear. Without him here to keep the world out, it all came crashing down on me at once.

Did this really happen? How could I have been so irresponsible? No matter how I looked at it I was in a no-win situation. Had anyone seen him come to me? I knew he was under constant watch but surely he'd taken precautions.