CHAPTER 17

I woke up when i felt something on my stomach.I just thought that i'm going to pee but I suddenly went to the bathroom and vomit there.My heartbeat became fast than normal.This was the exact scene that i watched on some movies.I'm really pregnant and Ryder was the father of my child.

How i wish that our relationship was normal like others.I wish that we are perfect couple.But we're not.Our marriage was just arranged by our parents.

I went out and i saw Ryder lying on the bed while looking at me.I thought he slept on my room?I just remember that no one can stop him for doing things so i think that he sent Zaire home and he slept here.

"Good morning."He smiled at me before he stood up and walk towards my direction.He hugged me from behind and caressed my stomach. "We have a baby.I'm now a father.Thank you!"

My lips formed into a smile.I think he will be a good father to our child.I hope that he will do his best for being a father.I just hoping all the best for the sake of our newly build family.

Ryder cooked for our breakfast but i craving for something.I kept quiet but i really want that food!I sighed again and again trying to get his attention and i succeed!

"You keep sighing,love.May problema?"He asked after he finished cooking the bacon.He placed the plate infront of me.

I looked at the food that served infront of me.In my whole life,ngayon ko lang inayawan ang bacon.I don't understand what i felt but i feel grumpy right now!I wanted heartshaped watermelon!I wanted to eat that!I started crying while I shooking my head.

"Hey!Oh god!May problema ba sa bacon?"He asked before he look at the bacon.He examined it before he throw it on the trash can. "Wala na!Don't cry!"

I wipe my tears before I encircled my arms around his stomach.I sob again and again until my tears stopped.I don't know why I'm so emotional but I think that it's part of pregnancy.Being pregnant was not easy.

"The bacon was mad at me!I hated it!"I shouted at him.Sa kanya ko nabunton ang galit ko sa bacon.That bacon was so disgusting!I hope i never see bacon again!"I want heart shaped watermelon!"

"W-what?"

"I WANT HEART SHAPED WATERMELON!"I can't control my anger so i suddenly burst out.Pakiramdam ko hinding hindi ako titigil hangga't hindi ko nakakain ang pakwan na hugis puso!I don't want anything but that watermelon!

"Okay!Okay!Wait there!"He suddenly went outside the kitchen at narinig ko pa ang tunog ng sasakyan.I rolled my eyes at naghintay ng ilang minuto pero wala pading Ryder at pakwan na dumadating.

Siguro may kasama na naman yung iba dahil sa pagsigaw ko sa kanya kanina.I regret that I shouted at him.Sana pala pinakiusapan ko na lang siya na bumili ng pakwan.I went to our room and cried there.I feel Ryder won't like me anymore because of my mood.He will find another woman because i'm so gutom!

Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras ako nagkulong sa kuwarto,I just stopped crying when i felt someone was watching me.I roamed my eyes around our room at nakita ko doon si Ryder na may hawak na cellphone at nakatutok iyon sa akin.My mood suddenly lighten up when i saw him holding a plastic with watermelon inside it.I ran towards him and hugged him tightly.

I thought he will never came back because i'm mad but here he was,Smiling while looking at my face without any irritation.I tiptoed to gave him a kissed but i stopped when i realized that he was still holding his phone.

I looked at him before i grabbed his phone.I'm right!He was filming us!I glared at him before i ended the video.I just going to shout at him but i remembered the thought that he was going to leave me again.My eyes watered at bago pa man ako humikbi ay naramdaman ko ang mga braso na bumalot sa aking katawan.

"Don't cry,love.Andito na yung pakwan."He whispered before he showed the watermelon he was holding.It was really a heart shaped!

My mood lighten up again at agad kinuha ang hawak niya.I sat on the edge of the bed before i try to open the watermelon by myself.It was so hard because i don't have any knife to just slice it.I tried to sat on the watermelon but it was also failed.I'm at the point to give up when Ryder gave me a knife.I looked at him before i grabbed the knife.I throw it on bed before i hugged him.

He was the best husband in the world for me!I felt his hand went on my butt before he slapped it.Bumitaw ako sa pagkakayakap at sinamaan siya ng tingin.Pervert!

I get the knife and slice the Watermelon.I'm really starving,kulang na lang ay tumulo ang laway ko dahil sa pagkatakam.I ate it without any utensil to use.It doesn't matter if Ryder think that i'm 'patay gutom'.I'm really hungry right now!

"My father called."He said that make me stop eating the watermelon.I don't know if it's emergency or it's so important that he need to tell me that his father called. "He was asking me to take care of our company because he need to leave for something important.Isang buwan akong magtatrabaho."

Kung kanina ay nagagawa ko pang kumain ay natigil na ako ngayon.I don't know why i feel sad about him,working in their company.I felt that something was going to take away from me.If he will work,There's a lot of beautiful woman around him.

My tears suddenly fell when i'm thinking about him having other woman than me.If he will find other that better than me, would he leave me?I hope he will stay lalo na at may anak kami.If my child was the only thing that make himto stay,i will used it no matter how it takes!

"It's only one month,love.Kung ayaw mo na umalis ako,say it!I'm willing to do it just for you."He said trying to comfort me with his words.

"Paano kung makahanap ka ng maganda don?Iiwan mo ako?I don't want to be a single mom on our child!"I said without looking at his eyes.I looked away para hindi niya makita ang basa kong mukha but he held my chin and force me to looked at him.I tried to looked down but his hand won't allowed me to do it.I closed my eyes para hindi niya makita ang katotohanang tinatago ko sa mga mata ko.

"Don't worry,Love.Sa iyo lang ako."He softly wipe my tears using his thumb at pinakatitigan ang mukha ko.I saw his sincerity on his eyes but i don't make myself a fool again.

He always said comforting words at ako naman itong tanga na ang bilis bilis magtiwala pero sa bandang dulo ako din naman ang masasaktan dahil sa pagkabigo.Minsan na akong nagtiwala sa mga pangako at salita niya pero paulit ulit lang din ako nasasaktan dahil lahat ng pangako niya ay napako at lahat ng sinabi niya ay hindi nangyari.

Kung pwede pang turuan ang puso ko na magtiwala muli ay gagawin ko kaso natatakot na naman ako.In every promise,there's a sorry.In every soft words,there's a pain.I'm scared that he will leave me again and again dahil alam niyang kahit ilang beses niya akong iwan ay may babalikan parin siya.Natatakot na akong sumugal dahil alam kong malulugi ako sa dulo.I'm scared of the consequences that it will caused me.

Instead of saying what i feel right now,i hugged him very tight.I don't want anyone but Ryder.Even i'm scared,My strength was him.May pagkakataon na maduduwag tayo dahil iniisip agad natin ang mangyayari.Like me,I always thinking about the future,not minding what the happiness will gave it to me.I'm always thinking about the pain that it will cause to me even the happiness was more than the pain.

If being martyr was a sin,i'm now the queen of the hell.If being strong was a crime,I'm on the jail now.Wala namang masama kung paulit-ulit akong magtiwala diba?Wala namang masama kung masaktan ka ng paulit-ulit sa parehong dahilan diba?

Kung nalagpasan ko ang problema ko noon ay baka sa problema ko ngayon ay maglaslas na lang ako.If Ryder was the pain,He also my pain reliever.Parang tanga lang,noh?

My phone suddenly vibrated.I don't expect a caller right now.I opened my phone and i saw my mother was calling me.Bigla akong kinabahan dahil minsanan lang siya kung tumawag.She was calling me for emergency or important things only.

Even my hands was shaking,i answered the call.I heard some shout on the line and the sobs of my mother.My hands become cold when i heard the news coming from her.

"Your father was on the hospital because of heart attack.."