Chapter 16

Yoongi POV

I wake up with a pounding headache and I'm stormed with the memories from last night. Did I actually tell her that I liked her and kiss her?! And did she really kiss me back or was that just my imagination. Either way I need to tell her that it was a mistake so she doesn't get the wrong idea.

I walk downstairs and eat some of the breakfast that the chef had made. A few minutes later Y/n walks into the dining room.

Chef: Good morning Miss!

I unintentionally give the chef a angry glare without realizing it, causing him to look away from Y/n's direction and get back to work.

I clear my throat and finally decide to explain last night's situation so that there is nothing awkward between us.

Yoongi: About last night...I was drunk and I didn't mean any of that. Sometimes I do stupid things that I have no account of untill the next morning.

Y/n: It's fine

Y/N POV

Of course he didn't mean it. You knew this already Y/n. But why does it still hurt so much? Why does it feel like the more I try to get over him, the harder I fall for him?

Y/n: I'm actually not that hungry so I'm just going to go and study.

I didn't really want to study I just wanted to be in a different room than Yoongi. Lately I've been thinking about breaking off the deal because it seems that being in the same house as him even though we are distant just keeps making my feelings for him stronger.

A tear slips my eye and rolls down my cheek as I slide down my locked door and cry silently. What am I supposed to do with these feelings? They just won't go away!

I've tried so hard to get rid of them! I even dated Felix just to distract me from them. I know it was wrong but a part of me really did like Felix.

It all ended in vain anyway. I just ended up right back with Yoongi and these feelings that I have no clue what to do with or how to control.

Yoongi POV

Y/n leaves the room and it feels like all of the life in the room has been drained. They say that drunk words are sober thoughts. Could I really like her? No that's impossible!

To be honest I've been trying to drive out the possibility of liking Y/n in hopes that my true feelings will go away and I won't get hurt.

What Y/n described her feelings for me as in her diary is very similar to how I'm feeling now . I've never felt this way before and it's all just so fucking confusing!

I never thought that I'd ever want more from a girl than just sex. That I would want to kiss her lips just because. Or want to spend my time and money on her willingly.

That part is what drives me crazy! I don't like spending my time with hardly anyone and I rarely like spending money on useless gifts for woman that aren't relatives.

I hate mushy sweet people and I will not become someone like that! I will get rid of whatever feelings theese are and return to my usual self.

Infact I'm going to be colder than I ever have to Y/n and I'm going to sleep with as many woman as possible just to show how much I don't like her!

** A few hours later Y/n POV**

I'm trying to read a book and all I can hear is blasting loud music and it's really distracting me and pissing me off!

Y/n: YOONGI CAN YOU TURN IT DOWN PLEASE?!

I yell but nothing happens. Figuring the music is too loud I walk downstairs into the direction of the ear piercing music and see Yoongi with two slutty looking girls on his lap and another one half naked doing a VERY sexual dance in front of him.

Slut#1: Can you fuck us now please? *bats eyelashes innocently*

Slut#2: Yeah daddy, pleeeease!

Yoongi:*looks up noticing Y/n* Oh, hey *smirks*

Y/n: Can you please turn down your music? I'm trying to read and it's very distracting!

Yoongi: Sorry no can do. But you're always welcome to come join in the fun! My dick is always hungry for more

Girls:*giggle in and annoying high pitched tone*

Y/n: No thanks I don't want a STD

I decide to just give up and start to walk torwads the stairs.

Yoongi: Oh and you need to stay home tonight

I just roll my eyes and walk back upstairs and to my room.

A few minutes later I can hear loud bangs, moans, and screams coming from downstairs. Just what I want to hear *rolls eyes*

I don't know if I feel more pissed of or hurt right now! Part of me is jelous that he's downstairs with those girls and the other part is mad that he was acting so arrogant and would go for girls like them.

I should have known better tho. He's still the same asshole fuckboy that he always is and I hate myself for loving him! Why can't I just turn my feelings off?!!

I throw a glass vase at my wall and tears stream down my face. I storm outside the back door and take the bus to Jimin's house.

I arrive a few streets away from his and walk the remainder of the way to his apartment knocking on the door.

Apparently his family is also rich and he lives alone because he enjoys the freedom of having his own space.

He opens the door letting me in immediately after seeing my tear-struck face.

Jimin: Sit..what happened?

I tell him everything that has happened since last night and only after I finish do I realize that he is also upset.

Jimin: I'm sorry Y/n, he's an asshole!

Y/n: What's wrong? You also look like you've been having a rough night

Jimin:*sighs deeply and nods* Mia- she rejected me. Quite harshly actually.

Y/n: I'm so sorry Jimin

Jimin: *lowly* It's fine...

He smiles but I know that it is fake. I can still see the pain and sadness in his eyes.

He gives me a look I've never seen before. He looks as though he's taking in my features as if somehow my face could make him feel better.

I don't know how it happened but suddenly his lips are crashing down onto mine and he's hovering above me on the sofa with his hands exploring my body.

I kiss him back hungrily and our clothes come off as we explore eachother's body's with our hands desperate to feel something other than heartbreak and pain.

He unclasps my bra and goes to pull down my panties but I break the kiss and stop him.

Y/n: W-wait *breathes heavily* I've never done it before

Jimin: Do you still want to do this?

Y/n:*nods*

Jimin: Then I'll try to make it as painless as possible

He hurriedly pulls my panties down and I can tell that he needs this to forget just as much as I do.

He spreads my thighs open and positions himself at my entrance before sliding in without warning

Y/n:*screams in pain*

He slowly moves and I realize just how big he is by the way I feel myself strech with his movements.

He moves faster and the pain turns to pleasure and I find myself moaning silently.

He speeds up making me moan out loud and soon the room is filled with sounds of our skin slapping together and loud moans.

He pulls out of me and spreads my legs wider before repositioning himself and slamming into me repeatedly.

Y/n: Oh fuck!

He leans forward and attacks my neck with his plump lips leaving marks all over me.

He slams into me even harder and my eyes roll into my head as I throw my head back and scream out another moan.

He stops slamming into me but still thrusts roughly as he attacks my lips again muffling my moans.

He lifts my legs positioning them by my shoulders and I feel him thrust deeper. I feel a knot form in my stomach and I know I can't take much more.

After a few more thrusts I come undone but he keeps on thrusting causing me to grip onto the couch tightly.

**a few hours later**

He finally pulls out of me and I pant not being able to catch my breath. I lost count of how many times we came, it was that amazing!

Jimin:*breathes heavily and runs his hands through his hair as he collapses next to Y/n* Holy shit *pants* that was amazing!

A/n: This is the last of my prewritten chapters so I'll try to write chapter 17 soon