Out of mind, Full of Lust (Flashback, Last Part)

ELLE

It was very late in the evening when I woke up feeling the heaviness of my heart.

I tried to move and have some different sleeping positions but it made no sense at all.

I decided to have some milk perhaps to calm my furious heart and hopefully, be able to have my mind at peace again..

Silently, I tiptoed down the stairs to prevent from making any sounds..

The house is silent, and so am trying to make any disturbance.

I managed to reach the kitchen without making any stupidity. What a life changing situation!

I opened the fridge to look for some milk and pour it in my glass.

I sat down and stared at the glass with milk on it.

I sighed.

It's been so while since I experienced this feeling.

And everytime I got this feeling, it's because of him..

The man who promised to love me forever but it turned out to be a nightmare for me.

I sighed for the second time.

I took a sip of my milk then closed my eyes..

Hoping my thoughts will be vanished away..

"Why are you still awake? Can't sleep?" Someone asked. I suddenly gasped because of shock. "Sh.t!",

"Oh I'm sorry! Nagulat ata kita.. It's not my intention to surprise you. I'm sorry." He sincerely apologized.

"No, it's okay. Nagulat lang talaga ako. " I said while trying to compose myself.. "And yes, I can't sleep that's why I came here to have some milk.." I added.

He went to the fridge and grab some beer in can and drink it.

"What's bothering you?" He suddenly asked. "Huh?" I responded. He stared at the can he's holding and stared at me..

"A person who can't sleep is probably experiencing insomnia or something bothers her mind.. So tell me, which one of these reasons are you into?" He directly said to me.

"I knew it." Napatingin ako sa kanya.. "What do you mean you knew it?" Patay malisya kong tanong sa kanya kahit alam ko na yung pinupunto niya.

"Don't pretend as if you don't know what I'm talking.." He seriously said..

Now that I've have been caught off-guard, there's no way to fool around especially when Jomari's around.

"Yes.. You're right.. My mind's bothered.. That's why I can't sleep." I said.

"Is it because of Kyle?" He uttered.. Napatitig lamang ako sa kanya. I saw him nodding as he drink the beer in can..

"I don't get it why people make promises to you and leaving you behind and pretended as if nothing happened?" I mumbled.

"You know what really hurts you now? It's because of your past.." I raised my left eyebrow to him..

"It's because you are being chained by the past of you and Kyle.. You don't let go, Elle. No, you can't let go of him until now and that what makes your life more hard to cope with.." He said. Bawat salita niya, tagos saakin.. Damang-dama cause he's right..

"Kahit hindi mo sabihin saakin, alam ko na sa tuwing nakikita mong magkasama sina Kyle and Ally, sinusumpong ka ng selos right? Kaya umeeksena ka bigla, you might push Ally away from the scene but the question is, are you really happy and contented with it?" I was left out speechless. I don't know what to say, all this time, Jomari has been observing what am doing..

"You don't know where am coming. It's easy for you to say those words but you don't know how does it feel to be neglected, to be cheated and to be left by the person you have loved the most. So don't lecture me on the things I should have gone better." I seriously said.

"Edi lumabas din ang totoo. Kaya ka nagkakaganyan kasi hindi mo pa rin matanggap na nangaliwa ang asawa mo. That he laid his hands on other woman's pants other than you.. That he inserted his d*ck to someone's p*ssy other than you.. What are you going to do now, Elle? Live with the thought of it?" He seriously asked me.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. Tama siya, pero may isang bagay sa mga sinabi niya ang hindi ako sumasang-ayon.

Tumayo ako at lumapit sa kanya. Tila nabigla siya sa biglang pagtayo at paglapit ko sa kanya.

"Maybe you're right on what you've said to me.." Nakipagtitigan siya saakin.. "But there's one thing I disagreed.." He was about to speak when I pressed my lips into him.

Nabigla siya ng husto sa ginawa ko.. I'm just giving him the evidence that I can be the bad girl too..

"I can be the bad b*tch too in case you don't know.. And here, I will show it to you.." I spoke..

I was about to walk away, when he grabbed my right hand and lock his lips to mine...

We kissed.. Fighting each other's tongue..

I wrapped my arms in his neck as he carried me leading me to his bedroom..

The next think I knew, we are at his bedroom, as the door of his room locks.

He slowly placed me in his bed without breaking the kiss..

"Tell me to stop.. I'm still giving you the chance to back out.. I don't want you to wake up the next morning regretting.." He said in a husky voice. He looked at me with full of lust.

I smiled as I shook my head.. "You've been wanting this, and you have done a lot of things to me.. Now it's my time to return you the favor.." I spoke..I saw him smiled as he pressed his lips into mine for the third time.

His hands started to roam my body. He removed my sleepwears and break the kiss to remove his..

I mesmerized by his body.. You can tell that he really goes to gym but that's not all about that.

It's about me who is about to break the vows I made to Kyle in front of the altar.

His kiss went down to my collar bone and to my neck. He slowly caressed my two mountains and immediately s*cked it like a hungry child..

I groaned when he bit it.. "You're such a naughty one!" I mumbled in between of my moans..

I saw him smirked and removed my undergarments exposing my core in him.. He slowly slid his finger in me and feeling the tightness of my core..

"You are really tight, Elle! And it smells so good!" He uttered.. Without a word, he immediately own my core.. I gasped when he slid his tongue inside of me..

"O-ohhhhh, Jom!!" I gasped.. I reached for his hair and pull it deeper.. I can't believe I am feeling this familiar thing again but this time, with another man...

"Don't stop! A-almost there!" I warned him.. With that, mas lalo niya pang pinagbutihan ang kanyang ginagawa..

"Release it.." He said.. I tried to hold back.. But it's no use.. I came.. And it's not because of Kyle, but it's because of Jomari.

"Sweet.." He said as he kissed me again..

"Ready?" He warned. I take a look at his little soldier. I got terrified upon seeing that.. I heard him giggle.

"Don't worry. It won't bite.. I'll go slowly okay?" As he giving me small kisses. I nod as a sign of assurance.

With that, he slowly entered my core. Napahawak ako sa kanyang balikat nang maramdaman ko ang kabuuan niya.. "You're really tight! Urggghh!" He moaned. He didn't move.. Probably, hinihintay niya na makapag-adjust ako sa kalakihan niya.

"Ahhh..." I made small moans.. With that, unti-unti na siyang bumibilis..

Nagkatinginan kami and locked his lips into mine..

I held on his hips as I followed his movements.

"Ahh sh.t!" He cursed when he felt my core tightened as I am about to came for the second time.

"I'm cummingg!!" I cried when I reached it..

He raised my legs and placed it in his shoulders as he started to move faster.. "I-i'm cumming, Elle!" He warned.. And with that he removed his shaft and explode it on my stomach.

We are both panting as he laid beside me..

"Thank you dahil pinagbigyan mo ko, Elle... I promise I will take care of you, and pinapangako ko rin na tutulungan at susuportahan kita sa mga gusto mong gawin.. Good night." He uttered as he dozed to sleep.

Napangiti nalang ako sa sinabi niya but it didn't last long as the guilt overwhelms me..

This is the first time I had s*x with another man. Aside from my husband, Kyle..

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To be continued...