Chapter Five- Planned Encounter

~Namjoon POV~

I need to talk to her. That is what I thought when our eyes met this morning and I once again thought over the many dreams I have had of her. I know I might sound crazy but what if she has the same dreams, I mean I saw sadness in her eyes this morning so maybe she was thinking about the dream. But that isn't the only reason I want to talk to her.

I mean even though we really only interact in dreams I feel like I need her, and the feeling is only getting stronger every time I dream of her. I have even felt a little jealous when we see their group and Taehyung hugs her, I get so annoyed I want to rip her out of his arms and hold her in my own but wouldn't that be a little creepy? I sighed as I stared at the memo pad on the desk in front of me.

The rest of the members except Suga and I went back to the dorms to get some sleep. We all went out and ate earlier so at least Suga and I weren't starving. Suga stood up and stretched a little before letting out a yawn. He looked over to me "Yah, Namjoon I'm going to get some snacks and drinks from the vending machines in the lobby, want anything?" I rubbed my eyes and yawned as I stretched.

"Ah can you just get me a bottle of water please hyung?" He nodded and grabbed his wallet before exiting the room. Leaving me once again alone, just my thoughts to keep me company. Yeah I need to talk to Erin, and even if it makes me sound crazy, and maybe makes her avoid me all together, I need to tell her how I feel for her. I took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of my nose to try and ease the headache that would surely come any second from all my restless thinking.

Outside I heard a few giggles and some feminine voices walking down the hall. I got up and peeked through the window on the door to see Aeri, Euna, and Mina from that girl group of trainees that Erin and Alex were in. Speaking of, where are Erin and Alex? I know it's rude to eavesdrop but I couldn't help it as soon as I heard Erin's name come up.

"I hope Erin finds her phone, didn't she take her password lock off of it so she could answer her phone faster?" I heard Euna say to the other two. So I guess she's looking for her phone and Alex stayed behind with her to help look, it sounds like them. The three girls got in the elevator and were gone from sight. Maybe I can go in there and talk to Erin, but wouldn't that be weird because I'm not even sure which room they are in and I would have to check all the rooms.

I sat back down, getting sucked back into my thoughts until I heard some voices outside walking down the hall again. I heard Erin's soft laugh as they walked past and I knew I had to talk to her, now. I got up and was about to run after them when I remembered Yoongi was still getting stuff and would be worried if he came back and I was gone. I pulled out a sticky note and scribbled: Hyung, I'm going for a walk to clear my head, be back soon.

-Namjoon.

I stuck the note to his headphones and ran out of the workroom. I hope I can catch Erin before she gets back to her dorm. I tapped my foot impatiently on the floor of the elevator waiting for it to stop and open so I can talk to Erin. My heart was racing and it wasn't from running to the elevator.

What if Erin rejects me, what if she gives me the same excuses as in the dream I had? What if she avoids me after this? Will I ever get to be with her? Why do I feel so strongly for her? I have only really talked to her in my dreams, but those dreams were some of the best I'd ever had. Wouldn't it be strange if she also had these dreams?

I was snapped out of my thoughts when the elevator doors dinged open. As soon as I could I ran out of the elevator but I paused at the door. Erin and Alex stood staring up at the sky talking to each other, although I was too far away to make out what they were saying. Even though Alex was there too, my eyes never left Erin. The moonlight shone on her, giving her skin a golden hue.

The sight of her made me gulp in a ton of air, it was like I had seen her in my dreams. She was so beautiful and I was again mesmerized by her. The moonlight caught the blue highlights in her hair perfectly, making them more vibrant. Her eyes sparkled and I felt a sense of deja vu. I took a deep breath before opening the door. Both girls turned and both had expressions of surprise etched on their faces.

Erin gasped but it was barely noticed by me, I couldn't take my eyes off her. My heart pounding like a jackhammer in my ribcage told me I was nervous, the last time my heart pounded so hard was when we were going to our first concert as BTS. This shouldn't be so hard, I mean I talk to fans at fan meets all the time, and I even perform in front of hundreds, sometimes even thousands of people. So why am I so scared?

Still watching Erin I spoke. "Can I talk to you in private, Erin?" Alex looked between us and moved closer to Erin whispering something to her. Erin took a deep breath and looked at me, a little bit of uncertainty swirling in her green eyes. Then she whispered something back to Alex giving her a smile, even though Alex looked skeptical she whispered something else and began to walk off.

Erin turned her attention back to me and our eyes locked for a moment, reminding me of the dream. I broke eye contact and turned to the building, gesturing for her to follow, I heard her footsteps coming closer and a shiver ran through me as I thought of all the times we had kissed, held hands, and hugged in my dreams. Dreams I so badly want to come true.

She followed me to an empty dance room. I felt my palms beginning to get sweaty and I took a big gulp of air. Erin stood in front of me, nervousness, worry, and curiosity churned in her eyes as she watched me. She hesitated before speaking slowly. "Is something wrong, Oppa?" My pulse quickened more, if that was even possible. Just hearing her call me Oppa, like from my dreams, made me want to kiss her and I almost forgot this was reality.

I waved my arms in front of myself and shook my head. "No! No, I just need to tell you something!" I blurted out. She looked surprised once again and nodded slowly to tell me to go on. You can do this, what's the worst that could happen? "Well, just promise you will hear me out, to the end and I don't want you to think I'm crazy or weird, well I probably am crazy." I babbled on and she smiled warmly and giggled a little seeming to relax. "Go ahead, I'm listening and I won't judge, not yet anyway." She teased.

Just seeing her smile calmed me down and I smiled back, a serene feeling set in between us. "This may sound crazy, maybe even creepy, but I have had dreams about you, many dreams, even before we met." I paused to watch her reaction, she nodded slowly, her eyes were on me and it looked like she was thinking about something. I took her silence as a cue to go on. "And in those dreams, we are in love, we hugged, swam together, we even kissed. I met your parents, your siblings Justin, Noah, and Adeline. I was your boyfriend in my dreams, before we even met in reality."

~Erin POV~

I felt the butterflies fighting and ramming into the walls of my stomach as Namjoon began speaking, just his voice can do this to me. What is wrong with me? As he began to talk about him dreaming of me, before we even met, I thought back to all the dreams I have had of him too. Is it really possible that we could have had the same dreams? There's no way we are both crazy, right? But he obviously knows about my siblings and parents.

He looked like he was waiting for a masked murderer to leap out of the shadows and kill him. He seemed really nervous and worried, so I gave him an encouraging smile.

​ His eyes immediately softened and looked as if his mind was somewhere else. He snapped out of his thoughts and went on. "I felt like I really knew you, like I really know you, and that... that I might actually love you, in reality too." He blurted and immediately rubbed the back of his neck nervously, reminding me of his nervous tick from my many dreams. But then another thought occurred to me, this is like the dream I had last night.

Namjoon is an idol, leader of one of the most popular boy groups in the kpop industry. He has so many fans, so many girls wanting his attention, and I'm just a trainee. Sure we are going to debut after a while but we can't do anything in a relationship until I'm an idol, and have a lot of fans to support my group. The managers will get mad at us if we cause a lot of ARMY to hate LIT M before we even debut, or get fans, it would ruin our chance. And I would crush the dreams of my fellow group members.

I raised my eyes to meet his, I felt the same heavy feeling in my chest that I had in my dream. Namjoon looked as if he realized what I was going to say because grief flashed in his brown eyes before he took a deep breath and forced a smile. "We don't have to be together, I just wanted you to know my feelings. You don't have to care about me, or even talk to me again if you don't want to. I mean I'm ugly and I'm probably not your type anyway."

I felt my heart drop and I felt a little angry when he said he was ugly. How is he ugly? Just because a few fake fans said he should leave Bangtan, doesn't mean he should doubt himself. I frowned at him and shook my head, so roughly that my hair whipped my face a little.

"I'm sorry Oppa, but you are NOT ugly, you are very charming and handsome and if some fake fans can't see that then it's their loss. You have an amazing personality and would probably be an amazing boyfriend. But now is not a good time to date, someday we will be able to date, but not now." He was taken aback and I saw some relief flood his brown orbs as his face relaxed and he waited for me to go on.

"I really like you, Namjoon. And I have had the same dreams that you described, and even before we met in person. I would love to date you, to be like in our dreams, but now just isn't right. Can we be friends for now?" He looked a little sad, but the understanding quickly replaced it and he nodded, a smile painting his full lips, his dimples showing . "Yeah, we can be friends I would like to get to know you in reality instead of just dreams."

I smiled and nodded with him, we may not be dating, but being friends is a start. He shoved his hands in his pockets and sighed. "Suga hyung is probably worried about me, I told him I was going for a walk." I couldn't help but laugh lightly and then sighed as well. "I should get going too, the girls will be wondering where I am and Alex will be wanting to know what happened."

Namjoon walked me out and we chatted about random things, it felt nice to be like this with him. I waved one last time to him before speed walking to the dorm. Alex texted me that they bought me ramen and went back to the dorm. Hopefully one day Namjoon and I will be in love in reality, not just in out dreams.

~Suga POV~

I was heading back to the room Namjoon and I were working in when I saw Namjoon run out and towards the elevator. What is he doing? I put the snacks and drinks in the room, seeing a yellow sticky note from him. It looked like he was going for a run instead of a walk. I took the stairs and stayed out of view when I saw Namjoon standing by the glass doors, watching two girls outside.

Two familiar trainee girls. I shook my head as I watched him, he is probably stalking Erin, but he wouldn't make a very good stalker. He would probably break things everywhere he went and she would catch him. He stepped out and talked to the girls. I was too far to hear what he was saying, but one of the girls left and the other followed Namjoon to the elevator. I furrowed my eyebrows and heaved a loud, long sigh as I dragged myself back up the stairs.

Damn you curiosity, now I have to do more exercise than the normal from dance practice. By the time I got to the floor they went to, they were already closing a door at the end of the hall. I walked as quietly as I could and placed my ear to the door, but just settled for opening the door a crack to peek in. They began to talk and then had a whole moment together that seemed like it was from a drama.

As soon as Erin told Namjoon he was handsome and that fake fans were missing out if they didn't see how handsome he was, I knew I liked her. Hey Namjoon, you have my blessing, Erin is a keeper. He looked surprised but I could see his ears turn pink. I smirked a little as I watched and then they settled for being friends. I flinched, poor Namjoon was friend zoned. I got up and silently closed the door and hurried back to the room Namjoon and I were in and sat down, waiting to scold him for lying to me about "going for a walk".