[Clear] Mind, Forgot

He stared blankly to the ceiling and whispered to himself as if mocking: "I forgot that I wanted to die. Why am I even glad?"

His mind was so confused at the moment that he was unable to think straight. If he did not feel the pain from earlier then he would question it if it was even real.

The blood-soaked floor had an unbearable stench to it. Rin only began to notice when he stopped thinking and became aware of his surroundings.

"It smells bad." Rin's mind couldn't process or even take any information as it is. It is too tired and in a confused state even after he slept like a log. So he decided to go take a bath and clean. It wouldn't hurt to relax first before looking at the problem, right?

This is Rin at his natural habitat, where his most comfort zone is at and on top of that he is alone. He shows his real personality, worrying about nothing and having to be carefree. Maybe that's the reason why he is different when with people or when he's [Outside].

Rin is afraid to show his carefree personality to others because of rejection. In his mind, people are always diligent. Even when he is with his mother, he always thinks about almost everything to the point that he unable to notice or become aware in real-time, making him clumsy or even stupid.

A person couldn't always have conscious thoughts all the time. So in a practical way, he is the most diligent person but it's too much that he's not even aware of it.

However, right now, his mind was tired and couldn't even hold a thought. He took a bath for two hours that made him refresh a little bit and cleaned the living room where he made a mess.

After cleaning, he decided to get another rest. It was past 3 o'clock, the night was very quiet, he slept again without any hinder. He was suffering for two weeks or more, he should be trembling in fear or having a hard time dealing with a trauma but there he is, sleeping peacefully like it was normal.

....

It was noon this time, the sun was up high and giving heat that people stayed indoors but there is man walking on top of a house's roof like the heat of the sun was nothing.

He was whistling an unknown relaxing tune as he walked raising his legs straight high. Surely the rooftop wasn't flat but he was walking on it like it was.

The man has a white messy hair and looked like he is at his 30's. His face was sharp; having narrow eyes, sharp nose and a pointy beard.

He whispered sharp, "What?!" he turned his head and stared faraway "After just a few weeks and another one was chosen?? Must be Nathan, he's really active these days." He smirked and chuckled. He looked at the distance like his prey was there "Great…"

Rin's body took advantage of his peaceful sleep and didn't wake him up. Only when his instinct skicked in and his growling stomach did woke him up.

Although he was pretty hungry, Rin thought that he could run around the whole world a few times with this energy of his. He felt overwhelming strength on every part of his body. His body was relentlessly struggling for more than two weeks. This is not some online article where it says, "Get stronger in two weeks!!! Doctors were stunned to find this effective workout!!!" His body was moving at its fullest 24/7! Well, subtracting the time where he went unconscious. But he always wake up just right after he fainted from pain!

His struggles were not pointless at all. Rin tried to be optimistic while evading the question in his, Why did he not die from all of that? Just from the moment he dried up or even the energy he took from his body without eating or drinking or just the fact that he was hanging! He should've died back there.

This was on the back of his head while he look at the clock on the wall in his room. "It's 3 o'clock again. I slept for 12 hours…" Rin shook his head and remembered to find something to satiate his hunger and thirst.

He went to the fridge and took a water jug, he didn't get any cup but drank from the water jug itself. The pitcher is a bit translucent and is reflective. Rin can see himself like he was looking right at the mirror. He saw a very skinny person and as he drink, this very skinny person would gain little flesh.

When he noticed this, he threw away the pitcher in shock. It did not break the pitcher but the remaining water splashed onto the ground. Rin saw himself once more and was very confused.

He touched his face and body all over and felt only bones and the few muscles he gained. He has no fat at all!

Rin got anxious and panicked, his physical appearance was the only thing that is not bad and he would even lose that?

No! There must be a way to get that appearance back! Rin searched all over the kitchen and found no actual food but only ingredients. He stared at what he had collected.

"What can I cook from all of these?" There are a lot of meat but a few spices and vegetables "I have no idea how to fry at all…" Rin was very disappointed at himself.

"Tsk! Don't care. Even if it does not taste good or even if it taste bad; if it's food, I need it right now!" he wore an apron and set the kitchen to fry all the meat.

He looked like he was some sort of protagonist in an anime about cooking. He did not think of anything other than wanting to eat. In short, his mind was clear.