I cannot be someone's second

There next morning she woke up and felt like her heart was in her mouth. Sitting on her bed, she started thinking of ways to toughen and harden her heart to be able to bear seeing Raymond in office for the morning status meeting. She checked her phone, but there were no messages from Raymond, but she saw 23 missed calls from Katherine. She wanted to call her back but then refrained herself because there was no point discussing anything any further.

With a heavy heart, she opened the laptop and started pouring her thoughts into her blog again. The blog post that she wrote the day before had two comments as well, but she was oblivious to everything around her that she didn't even bother to read them or reply to them. She dragged herself to get ready and left for office.