Lost

I woke to my head throbbing in pain. I'm just thankful that Jin-hyung knows I don't really like bright lights. Only my bedside lamp was open. Our thick curtains closed shut so I can't really tell the time by the sunlight. Fumbling for my phone I noticed an IV line on my hand.

Fuck.

I scoured my brain for my last memory.

Fuck.

I tapped my phone and pressed on my number one emergency contact. It only rang once. I'm sure he was waiting.

"Joon."

"Hyung." I can hear people on the background scrambling like mice.

"Where are you guys?"

"At the common area." He made a hissing sound. Most likely the maknaes were asking him how I was.

"It's okay. You guys can come in." Then I ended the call.

I looked at my lock screen.  9:43AM.

Damn. I lost almost a day. I must've scared everyone. The last thing I remember was Jin-hyung's worried face and him calling Namjoon.

The door clicked and a mop of blonde hair was the first thing I saw.

"Yoongi-hyung..." Jimin's soft voice reached my ear. Then he stumbled forward as Tae barged in and went straight to hug me.

"Hyung we got so worried."

"Can someone tell me what happened? Apparently I lost a day." I showed them my phone screen and they all smiled a little.

"You blacked out Yoongi. You scared the life out of me." Jin-hyung confirmed that my memory was quite accurate.

"We called our doctor right away so he already knows your situation. He said your transmutation is happening very fast. We need to find her soon. She must be in deep trouble too." Namjoon's worried face says it all and looking at my ring confirms all their fears.

I managed a soundless chuckle but I can feel my muscles tensing, slowly starting to shake in anger. Life really has a way of ruining a perfectly okay life. I tried to rack my brain. Was there anyone at all that caught my attention that day? Was there anything different that may have happened? But no matter how I try to remember, there was nothing.

Jimin sat beside me and started rubbing my back. He surely knows when we truly need a warm touch. Never fails to calm me down.

"Thank you Jimin." He just gave me his softest smile.

"Don't worry Hyung. Our managers are already making all the moves necessary so that we can find her. The fan meet has been moved to tomorrow. I'm sure she'll be there. She won't miss a chance to see you again." I don't know why but Namjoon's words didn't placate my fear. Why do I feel like she won't be there?

"I just really hope she does."

Suddenly, Jungkook clapped his hands. "Hyung! I think we might've forgotten something."

"Do you remember anything that day Kook?"

"Remember, we had a meeting that day? The cute girls." He blushed a little as he said the last sentence. But yeah, he is right. We did see a trainee group that day too and I remember that one girl. What was her name again?

"Ah! Yes! The ones from JG Entertainment. Good thinking there Jungkook. Will just call Sejin-nim and inform him about this." And Namjoon stormed off to make the call.

"Guys you don't have to watch over me like owls you know?" And their eyes wandered around the room like they weren't staring at me.

"You don't have to always look strong too Yoon." Jin-hyung really knows me best. He should though. We shared a room for years. "You know we're here for you, right?" I just nodded and they all silently walked out.

A nurse came in next. Gave me some vitamins and reminders about eating and getting hydrated. Apparently, it helps in lessening the effects of the transmutation. Jin hyung came back with a tray full of food after that. So that was what I was smelling earlier. For sure, everyone got a break today too 'cause that's the only time Hyung cooks.

"Eat well Yoon you need it and no staying up late working today. You need to rest." He reminded.

"Yes mom." He gave me a little giggle before goin out. Most likely they'll be having dinner too. It's just so rare for all of us to be at home. Why not join them then? I think I need the energy of the dinner table banter to get me out of these blues.

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I don't know why but somehow I knew that she wouldn't be in that fansign. I know I should've played the part but the longer I sat there the more time I lost in trying to find her. It was a good attempt but it did not yield the result we wanted.

We all went home. I was told to rest some more but I just can't do that. Unfortunately, I can't really do anything right now too. It's like my brain decided to stop functioning right when I got into this soulmate business. I just can't stop thinking about my mate. She's just invading my thoughts all the time to the point I can't even write a single line of lyrics. No matter how hard I concentrate. Nothing.

Where the hell is she? And why isn't she seeking me out?

I took my car and started driving aimlessly.