I clean myself first in the bathroom near the pool before going back to my room. I knew the dirty blood between my fingers wouldn't make Eliana scream away from me.
Though it was fine for me to be with her when in her dark situation. I'm not fine at all if she saw a glimpse of a monster of mine.
I hated if Eliana saw me with her different look, trying to get away because she's scared. She might want to run for a thousand reasons, but I knew she scared of me was not one of them.
She might be afraid of how our situation would turn out, but she's definitely not afraid of me personally. And I wanted to keep it that way. I wanted her eyes to have no fear when she saw me. So I thought washing the blood from my body was the best choice.
But Eliana expressed differently when I came to the room. She was sitting on the bed, certainly not sleeping.
My mouth formed a smile when I knew she was waiting for me.