When we don't understand us.

Today is my 25th birthday and from morning nearly 100 of my friends, relatives and family members were wishing me and almost all of them have sent me lot of gifts yet my husband hasn't even remembered that today is my birthday i am so done with him i am fed up.

Now i am at the grand shopping mall collecting some daily needs Arrrr! Once a gain this bloody sweet love couples oh why can't they go somewhere else why are they always come in my way i hate them now . "Oh i am sorry mam i am sorry oh wait let me pick them for you" i said looking at the old lady.

" Oh its ok my dear may be you missed your step, of course i know that you didn't do it on purpose, its ok my love" said the old lady whom i mistakenly stepped onto and i felt really sorry for her its all this love couples that make me go crazy and anyways i am tired and i will come tomorrow to buy the other things and of course nobody will care even i stay the whole night out roaming in the city as nobody knows me except by husband who never cares for me i hate him too.

Yet what to do its all my fault and now its being 2 hours since i reached home from the mall yet this man hasn't come home and today he has no overtime work though, then why is he late, is the rumors about him are true noway Ms. Sandra is his best friend and that's all, and i want think he would cheat over me no, its just nonsense , stop Clara, Raymond would never do that for you.Ok then if i am really important for him then why didn't he remember my birthday, ok maybe he is going to surprise me tonight, yes that has to be the reason.Wait who is kicking the door, Oh no its Raymond ohh my god,

"Ohh Raymond I am sorry I didn't her you" i said pleasingly.

"Ohhh seriously Clara i have being knoking this door for nearly 10 minutes and you didn't her me or once again were you starring at you phone" shouted Raymond .

" Come-on Raymond i was just just ohh its nothing i am sorry its my fault" I answered what else should i say other than saying sorry if i tell him that i was thinking about him and Sandra he might once again try to argue with me which would lead to a huge fight between us.Anyways i don't need to do that because i need to see his surprise for me i am waiting impatiently for it .

" Clara i am speaking to you Clara can you hear me Clara Clara" shouted Raymond and suddenly when i try to respond to him I got a call from Andrew and soon his name displayed on screen Raymond fumed in anger and held a suspicious look at me i think he started to misunderstand me and Andrew once again.Actually Andrew was my teenage crush we had a once sided love towards each other yet unexpressed and soon after i got married with Raymond Andrew invited me for a chat and he told me about his feeling yet i kept silent and did not express my feeling as i have already married and the sad thing is Andrew isn't married yet and we use to be good friends now but unfortunately Raymond is not trusting me and this big issue has led may disputes between us but what to do am still confused ohhh still Raymond is staring at me like a dragon ohh god how am i going to answer this call. Ok lets do it i took a deep breath and said to him " Raymond i am sorry" and ran into our library and looked its door.

Ohh what kind of a fool i am why did i say sorry for Raymond its not something wrong only thing i needed was to answer Andrew's even Raymond would go to the library or to the work room to answer official call or call from Clara but sometimes he answer her calls infront of me too, then why did i go to the library the only thing i needed was to escape from Raymond else he would once again will start to argue with me i am so done with his arguments since marriage its only two days that we enjoyed a lot and one is honeymoon day and other is the day when we visited Sandra's place other than that he haven't enjoyed any other day in our life and now its being a year since our marriage.Ohh my god the phone call i just forgot it.

"Hello Andrew why did you call me" ,

" Ohh my god Clara i've being calling you 5 times continuesly and why didn't you pick up the call is everything ok dear",

"Yeah fine and why did you call me" Actually i lied to him everything isn't ok i am in a big trouble but how can i dare share my personal issues with him he my friend and if i do so my husband will misunderstand me once again.

"Hello, Clara Clara are alright please tell something Clara are you ok why aren't you speaking Clara Clara can you hear me what's up with you dear"

" Ohh i am sorry i was just ahh just cooking actually i was just cooking yeah i a ok Andrew don't worry"

" Clara do you know what time its now"

" Ah actually may be around 6 pm "

" Oh my god Clara you are really in a big problem dear i know of course Clara Siemon cannot lie and its 12:30 pm right now and for what reason you are cooking right now.Ok anyway i just called you to know whether everything is ok as you haven't replied for any of my messages and even the birthday wishes and now i know the issue you are in a serious problem its ok dear i will meet you tomorrow, then you can share it with me Clara i will share location please come i will be waiting for you bye dear"

" Andrew wait i am totally ok you need not to worry its just a small headache and know i am ok Andrew Andrew" ohhh he has left the call. Oh god why can't my husband understand what Andrew understood, I don't know what to do i am in a confusion why i can't act normal .

After few minutes i opened door and walked to our bedroom all what i needed was to explain everything to my husband from the being and find a solution to this issue i am pretty sure that my husband would always have a solution for this and he will surely listen to me and he will understand me.So i walked to the room fast hoping my husband to wait for on the bed.

But the door was locked i tried to open but it was locked from inside and i knocked the door several times but he never respond,so i walked to the guest room and lye on the bed yet couldn't sleep once again i was in a confusion.

The only problem i had was that i couldn't understand me i know that i am in a problem yet i don't know what's it and i needed to live a beautiful life the way we dreamt before our wedding but still i can't understand what's wrong between me and Raymond.Actually Raymond was a perfect husband and he had never cheated on me and i know the issue is with me yet i don't know what's and suddenly a message popped-up in my phone and it was from Andrew and he have asked me to meet him at Mama's cafe during the lunch time.

After reading it i also replied ok and tried to sleep but it was impossible my mind was so messed and i was totally stressed and fed up with these so i drank two sleeping tablets and slept.