The Queen of Spades

Just like thunder after the lightning, if i need quiet some time to arrive, it means that i'm far from you. Vice versa, if i need a second to come to you, it means that i'm close to you. Its not like i'm gone, i'm always here even though i don't make a sound. Trying not to hurt you, even thought you keep pulling me close to you. I can't not hurt you, if i'm always by your side. Live well, stay away from me. Stop chasing after me, what do you want from me?