The denial

Chapter Nine

Ryker

This is a wrong move.

Touching her felt so right.

Nothing has felt right in a long time.

Nothing has felt right ever.

Leighty said I should let this go and I should have listened to him but someone wanted to hurt her and I couldn't stand it. I couldn't sit back and watch him do what I knew he was going to do. I know her story. I know what that man has done to her before and I knew he was going to do it again. Like I told her, that man is not a murderer but he has a big part in her death. What would have happened if I hadn't stopped it, would have ended up being the path to her end.

I stopped it.

I intervened.

Knowing full well that I shouldn't have. Every action, decision, leads to the path that is life. I disrupted the path she was supposed to take and because of that, I changed things.

I am messing with her life—or should I say death.

I am not supposed to but it seems like it is out of my control. I didn't just disrupt her life but I got involved in it. A date. Ha, I could never successfully date anyone.

That is not who I am.

That is not my destiny but for a second, when she asked me, I wanted to say yes.

I wanted to go on that date.

Even though I know I cant.

"What did you do?'' Leighty walks into my room. There is a frown on his face. Leighty never comes without an invitation. He likes to avoid the dark realm. No one in the heavens likes the dark realm. He is the only one that comes because of me. he is the only one that is still here, even with who I am. I watch him as he shakes his head with disappointment.

"I don't know what you are talking about?'' I shrug.

"You messed with the balance. You know that. stop fucking messing around."

I know what he is talking about.

"He was going to rape her,'' I shout angrily.

He was going to touch what was mine.

"She is not yours,'' he deters.

I didn't even know that I said that out loud.

"You are playing with fire Ryker. They all want to see you mess up. they want you out of order. Do not do this.''

I sigh "I won't go out of order. I just want her before anyone touches her."

That is not the truth.

He doesn't believe me.

"She is not yours. She is a girl that is destined to die. You can't mess with her fate.''

I shake my head, slowly running my fingers through my hair. I understand him. I know that this is unlike me. I am so fixated on her that I have forgotten what is important.

"I won't mess things up again.''

"You can't see her tomorrow.''

I don't even want to know how he knows that. I am not the only immortal being. He knows as much as I do. Meeting her will change more things. She can't escape her death but the way she would die will just change.

"It's just sex," I deadpan.

I know it is not just sex.

I know this means more than I will like to admit to myself right now. I just want a taste of her. is that too much to ask.

"You like this one. This is not just sex." He shakes his head, almost like he is in disbelief. I don't like people; that is why I am here and they are all up there. I don't even like Leighty. I just tolerate him.

"I don't.''

He scoffs "Prove it. have sex with her and then call it quits. Get back to your duties and when the time is right. call her out to me.'' he takes a step away from me.

His words should be easy.

He is giving me a chance to have what I want.

I want her and he is not refuting that.

My biggest fear is still looming and it is almost like he knows. He is watching me. the best thing to say at this moment is no. I don't want her. I can resist this temptation that is pulling me in but I can't.

I want to give in.

I want everything that I have been offered, even though I will end up messing things up.

"You have a deal. let me have her and I will bring her to you." I tell him calmly.

My mind is a mess right now but to him, I am cool and composed. He walks back to me and stretches his hand out to me.

"Great but if you mess this up Maxim, you mess with the order and if you do that, I will make sure you perish with her.''

His warning is clear and it should scare me but it doesn't. I want to be strong about this and I need the willpower that will come with that. I will do this and I will come out strong.

I can have my way.

I watch him disappear and I close my eyes as I let out a breath. I am supposed to meet her tomorrow. She agreed to this so easily that it scares me. She must know how I feel about whatever this is. she wants to pull me into her orbit.

I will not let that happen.

This is a quick fuck.

I will take her in all the ways that I can and then I will watch her die. I will watch her die and it will not mean anything to me because I am the keeper of death. I am the leader of the dark and I do not do romance. I do not fall in love and if Harley Davis thinks that she will find a way to seep into my heart and make me hers.

She has a long thing coming.