Mindspace

I can feel myself floating, no, moving without touching.

This place… I have been here before… when?

I can't see anything but I can feel.

…Am I dead?

No, I remember going to school with a headache then I had lunch and… took some meds, yeah.

What happened? I can still feel my body, but I can't move it.

Yet, I AM moving. Not my body, my mind.

How?

And why does it feel so familiar?

Fuck, I am probably dying.

I don't wanna die.

I didn't even get to the middle of my Fallout NV playthrough with my new merged mod list.

Oh, I can see?

Wait, isn't this the landscape of the Mojave wasteland? The hell?

I can feel it all, as well as my body. I feel myself copying it? Okay this is getting strange.

Annnd now it's done, grea- is this the Commonwealth now? Am I chain-jumping?

Well, let's just wait and see.

...

It's over.

I am again moving in the middle of nowhere. Strangely enough, I don't think I am dead. I am still breathing, even though it's not here, like a distant sensation.

There's nothing to do here. I can't even do whatever I did to Fallout again.

I am feeling sleepy but fear what will happen if I succumb.

I really regret not doing more in my life. I won't even be able to end my novel I was writing. Will someone miss it like I miss Highschool of the Dead? Probably not.

My mind is waning, I....

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Wut.

Black. All I can see is black.

Well, at least I can see, even if it is just pure darkness.

And I can feel my limbs! Or these chubby little things sprouting out of my torso.

Yep, I am a baby. Most probably still in my mothers uterus judging by the fact that I am involved in liquid and the fleshy thing coming out of where my bellybutton should be.

Not only that, I also feel another one like me here, so I have a twin.

*sigh* Two death like experiences in near succession. No, I suppose one was literal death.

…Now what?

....

Holy shit, I really died.

I am never going to see my family again.

I am never going to see my friends again.

My life is gone.

All that I did, for what?

I didn't even get a girlfriend for fucks sake!

I didn' accomplish anything, my life was just beginning!

I… lost everything.

I…. am alone.

I am as close as one can be of another living being, yet, there's only me here.

All that I knew is gone.

What… do I do?

...…..

Fuck it, I'll live that's what I'll do!

Yeah everything I knew is gone, so what? I'll go over it all again! I always did that in my games, creating new characters from the beginning over and over.

It shouldn't be that hard, right?....

...….

Let 's start! First things first, what can I do to improve my life while still in the womb? Hmm, yep, I'll do math.

Why? You see, the human brain develops itself at an absurd speed in the childhood, so what would happen if you start doing highschool grade math while a fetus? If my theory is correct I will become a genius. Thus, that's what I will do.

And so a few days pass (or was it months?) and I finally feel that I am too big for this place. Some hours later I start getting pushed through a tight passage.

It hurts.

It hurts WAY too much.

After what felt like an eternity I was finally born. Again. And thus I screamed in intense agony.