CHAPTER- 4

"what ....." I said shocked as hell.

"yes but,what happened to you why are you talking like that as if, you've forgotten everything?"he said.

"what are you saying, I don't even know him,how can I be the reason behind his death,what are you..sayin ....and who is he" I asked

"babe I think you are not in your right state of mind, let's just get back there as soon as possible and meet the psychologist, I have taken the appointment " he said.

" I am not mad.....I am not...m..mad.." I said sitting down beside the dressing chair crying.

"I know you are not mad meera....but please dude I can't see you behaving like this anymore,what have happened to you atleast tell me what is happening to you?" he said sitting down infront of me.

"no...,first tell me who is aniket? tell me please "I said holding his hands.

"nobody ..meera listen to me it doesn't matter anyways,it's not important..... actually I am happy that you have forgotten him" he said

"It's not important? how can you say that..huh.,I see him in my nightmares every day, I haven't slept properly for so many days now,whenever I try to do something I am not able to concentrate on it,each and every second, just there are some stupid questions going on in my head about him ,and you say it's not important?",I said out of frustration.

" look meera I ....under...."

"no.....tell me who it is....?" I said cutting his words.

"ok ...I'll tell you but even I don't know much about it, I only know what you told me" he said.

"you told me once that Aniket was your first love, and you even stayed with him for almost 6 months, when you went back to India for some music recording, and then when you came back to New York you were totally different, didn't even talked to anyone and ,you were diagnosed with serious depression. That's when you told me suddenly that he was dead,and when I asked you how and what happened ,you just said that you were responsible for his death. that's it."

he said .

"A..aniket my first love....? then why don't I remember him... huh and if he was my love how can I say that I was responsible for his death"I asked confused like hell.

" meera , I don't know what have happened to you and why don't you remember him, but that's all what I know about him" he said

"how....can ..I just forget everything.....aah" I cried out of frustration,and I was just sitting there and crying badly.

(Meanwhile on other side of the green room )

"hyung do you really think she is mad"yae-joon asked to do-woon.(when meera pulled Ron in the green room beside her she didn't knew that it belongs to K.THx.,and they were still in there but were not visible because of long dressers, they were standing on the other side of the room behind the dressers )

"shut up hyung " joo-won said angrily.

"I think sort of....like don't mind me...but that day at night the way she behaved ,I thought something was wrong with her...and now it seems she is a murderer too" SEO-joon said.

"shut up,please just keep your mouth shut ok!"joo-won said angrily

"I didn't meant it like that but..." SEO- joon said

but suddenly stopped as they heard meera cry badly.

"I don't think we should judge someone like this",do-woon said.

"yeah do-woon hyung is right ",joo-won said.

(back to the scene)

suddenly Ron got his wife's call and he left and I was left alone . It was all getting very hard for me to handle at once ,

'Aniket.!Aniket,...Aniket who the hell are you.....?",I shouted sitting there holding my hair from my hands.

"and If I loved you....why Don't I remember you..what the hell is wrong with me?",I said standing up from the ground.

now I was facing the mirror, and all those flashbacks started coming infront of me,he and I holding hands and running away from something, then he asking me to leave and don't look back,then I started hearing all those voices,

"no....no...no...no!"

then I took the vase and threw it on the mirror. the mirror shattered into small pieces so does the flashbacks, and I fell on ground and started crying and punching the ground badly.

"meera...meera....meera stop..stop..please..please stop,let's go your hands are bleeding, come on get up" ron came back after attending the call.

My hands were bleeding badly then Ron took me to my room.

( MEANWHILE)

we(K.THx. ) were talking and then I(joo-won) suddenly heard a loud sound, and heard meera crying, I wanted to go there but do-woon hyung stopped me,

"joo-won wait, don't go ,no need to meddle with others business ",do-woon said.

"but hyung.."joo-won said

"no means ,no",do woon said

"yes joo-won ,do-woon is right, don't go there,I know you like her and are worried about her, but she will not like it ,if you go now..",SEO-joon said.

( back to the scene)

Ron and I were walking through the corridor when I suddenly stopped and said,

"Ron.....you go back ,I want to be alone for some time please ",I said.

"are you mad,look at your hands they are bleeding badly " ,He said.

"don't worry, I'll take care of it "I said.

"stop it okay ,let's go to my room first and let me do the first aid we will talk about everything later",he said angrily

"ok" I responded.

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after the first aid , I came to the lake nearby and I was sitting on a bench near the lake, trying to figure out everything, just starting at the calm and still water of the lake,and my life was just in the midst of cyclone itself.

Then I got an Idea that I can find about him more,because if I loved him I must have our photographs or some belongings ,then I called stacy and asked her to book a flight for me back to new York.

"hello ! stacy help me book a flight back to new York",I said (on the call)

"but ,why suddenly?,aren't you going back with everyone tomorrow evening already ", she said

"just,do it please " I said

"but..."

"you can come back with them later,I don't mind",I said.

"ok ,mam I'll do it",she said and hung up.

(after ten minutes)

"mam it's done,but you have to leave now for the airport, as the last flight will take off at 12:30",she said.

"Ok" I said and cut the call and rushed towards my room to pack my stuff.

(after 20 minutes)

I packed up and left. for the airport.

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I was going to board on the plane,then I remembered that I haven't informed anyone before leaving, so I texted Ron.

"Ron,something Important came up so I am leaving early and sorry for not telling you before , and don't worry I am safe",I texted him and then switched off my phone.

then boarded on plane.

(meanwhile in the hotel)

"what do you think is wrong with her suddenly?"fred asked.

"I don't know...maybe she is just depressed or disturbed from the incident last week" Alex said.

"I am afraid...it's just not about that..something is really wrong this time",Ron said entering the room.

then his phone vibrated,he stopped and saw meera's message.

"what happened?",John asked

"oh,it's meera's message "he said opening the messages app.

"so what is she saying?",Christopher asked.

"she says,something important came up so she left early back to new York ",Ron said getting angry.

"what at this hour?is she mad?", fred said.

"I hope there's nothing wrong with her this time" Ron said. and kept his phone aside and went to washroom.

"bro atleast call her.."fred said but Ron had already left.

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(Next Day )

I reached my home by next morning, and only thing that I wanted to do was search for our photos ,as I entered my living room and started searching for our stuff in each and every corner the room like a crazy person, by that time Ana reached there,as Ron asked her to come to my house.

"where ....is..it?....where...?"I was just searching everything and everywhere I could.

"meera stop what are you doing?",puzzled by my behaviour Ana tried to stop me.

but I didn't stop and searched my whole house,

then I went to my study room,started throwing books aside and searched each and every drawer, but found nothing then a broken frame caught my eye,I went near and picked it up.

It was our picture .I took it in my hand and just stood there staring at it.

"Aniket....?"I said looking at it.

"Meera are you fine and what is all this why is everything, like this?" she said entering the room.

but I didn't even listened to her and was staring at that photo frame so surprised and happy, like a 5 year old kid seeing magic for the first time.

but the fact that he is dead hit me hard,after remembering everything that Ron said ,I just started crying while hugging the picture.

"meera ....meera..what happened?",ana asked worriedly.

and then I hugged her tightly and just cried loudly.

I was getting all the flashbacks,

(flashbacks)

"Aniket..no look in front, or we'll bump into some car or a tree" I said as aniket was looking at me all the time while driving.

"now what can I do my girlfriend is so beautiful and she sings so beautifully how can I concentrate?"He said again looking at me.

"Aniket....no..stop..it",I was asking him to concentrate and he just kissed me not giving a damn about driving.

"hmm...you and I will die here if you keep doing this then I can become a superstar in the heavens above " I said pushing him back.

"you are already a superstar so don't worry I will be your fan always ",he said teasing me

"hahaha alright stop buttering me up ok",I said and folded my hands.

"if you are so smart and know that I am buttering you up then please stay here, don't go to America, Bollywood is not that bad right?"he asked .

"I know but,I want to try something new,and you know na ,it was my biggest wish to be a part of a band and finally it's coming true.....woo hooo... I am so happy",I said.

"I know....",he said rolling his eyes.

"wow...it's my favourite song increase the volume "I said.

"yeah sure musician madam" he said increasing the radio's volume.

"tum kyo chale aate ho...har roz. in khwabo mein..chhpke se aa bhi jaao.....

Kya mujhe pyar hai...ya ESA khumar hai yah .."I was singing loudly to annoy him.

"really who is coming in your dreams every day?" he asked, repeating the song's lyrics.

"umm....someone maybe..,aah stop aniket please..hahahahahaha ",he just started tickling me.

(flashbacks end)

"You...only you ,come in my dreams eveyday",I said crying.

"what?.." Ana asked confused.

"nothing.."I said

"Ok,now get up and let's eat something " she said.

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(after 1 month)

I am still trying to search for the answers, and now I am starting to see those weird things, too often .but I met a psychologist and he said I was suffering from schizophrenia and PTSD amnesia. but I am truly trying to get over it. it's been one month, and today we will meet K.THx for the collaboration album.

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"Hy..",Do-woon said walking towards us.

(we are now in our studio of rockstars )

"Hy..welcome everyone ",Ron said greeting them.

"you don't know how excited I am for this collab",Ron said again smiling shyly as a newly wedded bride.

"we are also very excited ",SEO-joon and other members said.

while joo-won was looking at me.

"Hy meera !",he said almost shocking me.

I just smiled at him in response.

" let's go then",ron said

and then we all sat down for deciding the theme,and lyrics and vocals part and stuff.

"what do you think we should choose ?" do-woon asked us .

and I was just lost somewhere .

"I think we should try something different ",veronica suggested.

"like?",shi-woo asked

"like something cool and heart touching at the same time", veronica answered.

"do you have any idea about it,or you are just ..",Ron asked teasing her.

"I mean our group have tried all types of theme, just we never tried something about heartbreak or missing our love something like that" veronica said.

"yeah she is right we should try it",Emily and everyone said in a unison.

they were just chatting and laughing, bickering with each other and I was the one who was least interested in participating in that chat.

then suddenly they stopped and joo-won asked me,

"who are you dreaming about superstar madam?",he asked and I was just shocked and stunned by that question. I was looking at him as if he was aniket,

I placed my hands on his face ,he was sitting next to me,"you...I just dream about you every day",I said tearing up.

"woohoo.. .....👏👏👏👏👏",all the members were hooting and cheering for us .then I came back to reality and realised he wasn't aniket I pulled my hands back and said

"sorry.....excuse me ..please ", I got up from there and ran out of the room.

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I was in the washroom, thinking about how I behave just now and was just looking at myself in the mirror, thinking what I have turned into.

then I saw a strange figure approaching me in the mirror.

"no...no..no...meera it's not true, it's not true, don't look at it,it's not true",then I felt as if someone back hugged me and was holding my waist.and I could feel it's breath near my ear.

then he whispered something into my ears,

"even I see you every day in your dreams ",he said.

then As soon as I turned back , I saw no one just a female cleaner, who was looking at me scared.

"M..M..Mam do you want something?",she asked.

"no...thanks" I said rushing out of the washroom.

I returned back go studio .

"meera are you fine?",joo-won asked.

"umm..yes and I am really very sorry I didn't meant to do it ,I just don't know what happened to me",I tried explaining him and everyone.

"Don't worry it's fine ",he said.

"oh yes meera can you help us write some lyrics ",ron asked.

"yeah sure. .." I said

"meera?....",Yae-joon asked furrowing his eyebrows.

"any problem?",I asked quite rudely.

"no..I was just surprised,like I thought you don't write something and are just a vocalist, because you were absent minded every time",he said.(taunting me)

"you don't need to worry about me,I can write and I have been doing this job from last 10 years,let it be for my solo albums or for this group, and if you are so concerned, find yourself a new lyricist ,thank you so much", I said getting angry.

"meera.....behave!",Ron said.

I just took my bag and left.