incredulously his

I look at him, happily chatting with his ex lover. I knew our relationship is just faked...but why does is hurt?, it hurts so much not knowing why. the way he laughed, the way he relaxes around her, I wanted to be that girl, I wanted to be the one he loves and is ready to spend millions just to have her back. but how?. because the only thing I know right now, is Im eventually gonna loose this game.