FIRST TIME- MYG

Rough sex is always nice, but that soft, sensual sex where they are not only sexing you but loving on every part of you, the intimacy you see in their eyes and the passion you feel when their breath hovers frm your ear, over you neck to down below, the love,the intimacy. His slow thrusts mixed with her soft moans, such intimacy with love in the air, even the moon got shy and hid behind the clouds. She thought how beautiful it is to lose yourself in someone, and not feel lost at the same time. His kisses, intense and deep, drove her wild with desire for more, so much more. When she looked at him, she could find his eyes sparkling only with love and adoration for herself. Her actual plan to kill yoongi ventured in her mind but she shut them down because she wanted to enjoy her last time with him together, in this pure bliss. She wanted him engraved on her in every way possible. He tugged at her bottom lip with his straight white teeth before releasing it and making a low noise in the back of his throat, she let out a sound that was just as guttural and pleading . 'You taste like sin- the best kind imaginable'. Just that one sentence from his mouth was enough to make her insides flutter wildly.She couldn't believe it was possible to fall for someone this hard, to love someone so much that it leaves her breathless everytime she looks into his eyes.

How could I get this lucky? She looked ethereal beneath me. Her chest heaved up and down, her body shining, her soft moans, her closed eyes… to say she looked like a goddess would be an understatement. I looked into her eyes and it felt like I realised what love is. 'Yoongi-ah' Oh god, this girl is seriously gonna be the end of me. I swear her moans are heavenly. Her screaming my name blessed my ears.The amount of pleasure I was feeling is totally indescribable.

Y/N POV

'That was awesome baby. You did great.' Yoongi booped my nose while pulling out. I gave him a soft sad smile hoping he wouldn't notice the tears welling in my eyes. He pulled me in his chest and whispered a soft I love you after kissing the top of my head. Soon I could hear his little snores making me even more emotional. I carefully escaped from his arms and took out the knife from the nightstand. I held the knife and with tears streaming down my face I made my way to the bathroom.

I sat in the bathtub and finally let the floodgates from my eyes out. Trying to be as quiet as possible, I sobbed silently. I hate this, I hate myself! I was supposed to kill yoongi with this knife but here I am using this knife to kill myself rather. He deserves so much better, not a pathetic backstabber like me. Why is only my life like this? I was taught to be cold and heartless from the beginning. At the mere age of 8, I was given a gun instead of a book. I never got love and affection from anyone. And now when I finally found my love, life has other plans for me. Yes I am being selfish, I am a backstabber, I am pathetic and I should just die. If they get to know I didn't complete my mission then they will kill my yoongi.. There is only one way out of this.

YOONGI POV

My eyes opened up when I didn't feel y/n's body against me.'Baby?' Hearing no response I got up alarmed. I saw the bathroom lights open and the door closed. I went up and knocked on the door. 'Y/N? Baby, are you okay?' Still no response. 'Baby it is me only, don't worry. Open the door please.' My insides churned when I didn't get any response again. 'I am breaking in now then.' I kicked the door and my heart dropped.

My Y/N, the light of my darkness was lying in the bathtub that had become bloody from her blood. A knife was lying on the floor and her wrist was slit. No no this can't be, I must be dreaming. I rushed towards her and checked her pulse. My heart dropped. 'Why y/n why? I thought we both wanted to make love to each other and to feel each other. You could have told me if you didn't wanted that, why would you kill yourself? I tried to hold my tears in but ended up crying my heart out. If my love is not alive then what is the point of living? I wiped my tears and went to my bed to grab my gun. I came near her and held her hand.'You never liked loud noises I know', I smiled sadly. I put on the silencer and aimed the gun on my forehead. 'Farewell, my love.'