This was the first time she was so conflicted. She was used to listening to the words of the clan, and now she had to disobey the orders, which was evidently something she couldn't do. However, Hu Xiao treated her so well, she didn't want to make a move.
"What should I do? Why do I have to do this?!" Xue Mier squatted on the floor, and looked out the window at the moonlight, her eyes blurred. If it was in the past, she would definitely perform her duty, but now, she couldn't.
"Hu Xiao, I see you as a friend. How can I possibly kill you?" Xue Mier muttered in her heart. She felt extremely uncomfortable, letting her make a choice was even worse than wanting her to die.
Go find Hu Xiao to drink.
He wanted to drink with Hu Xiao and see if he could chat with her. Also, she could try and see if Hu Xiao saw her as a friend.
If Hu Xiao didn't see her as a friend, she would poison her to death. But if there was, what then?