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I had so many questions on my mind while walking in the forest. I didn't know how I was going to face him. He had said so many hurtful things to me. I just can't forgive him for that. Even if he claims it is done for my benefit. How it can be of my benefit if it hurts me more than it saved me? I'm a big girl and I wanted a partner but Lucien behaved as though he was my father. He wanted to protect me from everyone but how could he when it was him who needs real protection. He could have said the truth to Igor and I would be hurt less. But he didn't even give me a choice and it hurt. I thought he respected me but how wrong I was? I wished he had talked to me first but instead he ignored me and took the decision himself.

"Mara it is night. Shouldn't we stop?", asked Kofi.

" Yes we should", I told him.

"Why are you zoning out? Are you feeling guilty for killing Shabd?", asked Kofi.