Chapter 5

Am I like that?I wondered, and resolved to be more open generally.

I focused on my work-out and my being “open”—though what exactly that was, I was still a bit vague. All the men I looked at seemed to have that same wall up, though the women didn’t. One woman, after looking at me in an appraising way, smiled in a knowing way. I smiled back and then looked away, thinking she must have seen me looking at the other guys. It hadn’t been an unfriendly smile—just one that that said she knew what the score was. I shrugged to myself and moved to the next machine.