Secret of a Straight Fudanshi (Pinoy BL)

Ace's POV

Napunta ka na ba sa point ng buhay mo na may nakapagpabago sa'yo and hindi mo alam kung good sign ba ito o hindi? For me, nakakatawa lang dahil hindi ko inasahan na mangyayari sa akin ito. I never thought that I would be a "Fudanshi" in my whole freakin life!

Pero ano nga ba ang "Fudanshi" para sa mga di nakakaalam? Ito 'yung male counterpart ng mga "Fujoshi", mga girls na mahilig sa yaoi, BL or any guy falling in love with another guy! So, if lalaki ka and mahilig ka sa ganitong content, isa kang "Fudanshi".

So kung ang isang guy ay mahilig daw sa mga ganitong contents, it means that he is gay or he likes guys. Kaso, iba sa situation ko!

I'm not gay and I don't even like guys but I consider myself as a "Fudanshi"!

Weird ba?

How did I turned out to be like this? Sige, I'll give you a flashback. Haha!

Flashback

I was on a manga library slash bookstore that day, and it was my first time there, June 17th of 2020, and I was looking for a "Dr. Stone" manga. Isang normal na araw lang and I was planning to buy it and then go back to my dorm afterwards and read.

While I was looking for that manga, napadaan ako sa dalawang babae na nakatayo sa isang stall at parang sobrang excited sila. Well I guess that's how I also feel kapag lumabas na 'yung manga na pinakahihintay ko. Kaso, hindi lang excitement ang nakikita ko sa kanila, I can also feel their intense emotions while reading that "manga".

Hindi ko alam kung anong binabasa nila from a far, and if this is the excitement that the manga is giving them, parang gusto ko din ito mabasa and maramdaman din 'yung intense emotions na nararamdaman nila.

I waited for them na umalis doon sa stall na 'yun so that I can take a sneak peak of that manga. I'm also curious as to why mga girls ang pumupunta sa stall na 'yun. Maybe it's a really good romantic manga? I don't know dahil first time ko lang dito.

I guess it wouldn't hurt if I check it out, right? What else could go wrong?

Pagkaalis ng dalawang babae sa stall na kinatatayuan nila kanina, I hurriedly went to the same exact spot and checked out the title of the manga na kinuha nila.

I saw the title "The Titan's Bride" sa gilid ng book. Title looks cool and maybe another "Attack on Titan" sort of feels kung saan may mga amazing and cool scenes na talagang mapapatayo ang balahibo mo and will give you this intense feeling!

I grabbed the book from the shelf and while I was holding it, and hindi ko pa siya tinitingnan totally, there's this one girl na nakatingin sa akin and parang natatawa siya.

Why? Is there something on myself na nakakatawa? May dumi ba ako sa katawan? Tiningnan ko muna ang sarili ko, but no sign of any dirt on my clothes, shoes and even my face when I checked it on my phone.

But, as soon as nakadaan na siya sa akin, she was still giggling and I thought na baka may gusto siya sa akin. Haha!

And then, as soon as I started to focus on the manga na I was very intrigued and curious about, I wanted to check its cover first. Dahil sa cover ako minsan na eengganyo.

So, nang makita ko ang cover... I thought na it's all about titans or another set or species of titans but it isn't!

Ang unang bumungad sa akin ay dalawang lalaki! Isang white with yellowish hair dude na napakamaskulado, malaki, and parang brown na "Hulk" and he was carrying this teenage guy!

"What! Is this a BxB manga?"

I know that they call this a "Yaoi" manga pero I haven't had the chance to read or even take a sneak peak of it because... hindi naman ako gay!

Shivers sent down my spine as soon as I saw the cover! Kaya pala ako tinatawanan ng isang babae kanina! She thought that I was gay! No!

For the record, I'm straight, 100% and I love cuddly and big melons rather than that of a big dick! No!

So, nataranta ako at baka may makakita sa akin kaya binalik ko ito sa shelf. Ngunit, nanginginig ang mga kamay ko kaya medyo nahirapan ako and it fell through my hands.

It was on the floor and it was open. Pupulutin ko na sana because someone might see me reading this kind of manga. But then, as soon as nakayuko na ako to get the manga that is lying on the floor, 'yung mga mata ko... mga mata ko na singkit at maliit, biglang nanlaki!

I saw something that I shouldn't have! Thoughts were being thoughted! Is there such a word? Hahaha!

On that single page alone, I saw the brown hulk guy making love with the teenage guy like he was making that teenage guy his b*tc* and they are outside near a wall!

What the F!

I sensed something different after that...

From that single page... I sensed something that I've never sensed a long time ago from the day that I was born into this world!

Biglang nanlamig ang mga kamay ko and gumalaw mag isa na para bang may sariling buhay. In my mind, I was about to return this freakin manga on the shelf... but no!

I don't know why I'm checking the other pages and I... I don't know! Bigla ako nag enjoy and I was very curious on the part na how did they end up and how did the story went through?

Pinawisan ako kahit sobrang lamig sa area. I was on the verge of buying this Yaoi manga but I don't know how!

The heck!

If they see me buying this manga on the counter, the world will see me differently and ayaw ko nang isipin! But I don't know why my body and my mind really wants to buy that manga!

But I've got a brilliant plan inside of my very imaginative brain.

Kumuha ako ng 6 manga that I really want to buy, including the Dr. Stone since 'yun naman talaga ang pakay ko. So as soon as nakapili na ako ng 5 manga, I went back to the shelf where I saw the "The Titan's Bride" and good thing na walang tao!

Tumakbo ako na para akong ninja and I kinuha ko agad 'yung manga and tinago ko siya along with the other manga I was carrying. And as soon as I walked out of that stall... bigla akong naglakad ng maayos like nothing happened. Haha!

Now I'm at the counter, waiting for my turn and it's like I'm waiting for my judgement day! Bakit ba kasi bigla ko na lang naisipan na bumili ng yaoi manga! What is happening to myself!

"Next please!" nakangiting sinabi sa akin ng girl na nasa counter.

I really don't know what will happen next, but, I was just wearing my serious face and being a deadpan just for this time. Nilagay ko na ang mga manga sa counter and I was looking at her reaction and kung anong mangyayari once she sees the "The Titan's Bride" manga.

She's now on the 2nd manga and checking the price tag. Kinakabahan na ako dahil next na ang " The Titan's Bride"!

Sobrang tahimik ko at hindi ako makahinga na parang anytime bigla na lang akong sasabog. Nang makita niya na ang manga, ang mga mata niya biglang nanlaki at nagulat siya.

Napatingin siya sa akin at bigla ako nagsalita, "Nope, Pinapabili lang ng friend ko. It's not mine, I swear."

"No sir, tatanong ko lang kung pagsasamahin ko na sa isang paper bag or hihiwalay ko pa?" nakangiti niyang sinabi sa akin.

I was so embarassed like I was really hiding something from her, which is totoo naman.

"Nope, pagsamahin mo na. Sayang 'yung paper bag. Let's save mother earth."

After she closed the paper bag na may laman na six manga, binilisan ko ang paglalakad ko dahil I can't take it anymore. Pakiramdam ko, lahat ng tao nakatingin sa akin at feeling ko, kung ano ano na ang sinasabi ni ate na nasa counter sa akin.

Nang makabalik na ako sa dorm, good thing na wala pa 'yung dalawa kong roommates. Now I have the time to read... The Titan's Bride. Hehe!

I don't know pero parang mas excited pa ata ako na basahin 'to kaysa sa Dr. Stone!

What the!

So I locked the door making sure na once na may tao na, matatago ko agad itong manga and no one will ever know. After that, pumunta agad ako sa kama ko and I started to read.

The first few parts, it was okay and the usual since introduction pa lang naman. But then, the latter came and I didn't know how I can stop myself from reading! I won't go into details since it's really hardcore pero naeexcite ako habang binabasa ko siya and how the teenager guy is being submissive and how he gave up his body and himself for the brown hulk dude and to be his bride!

This is the first time na makakita ako ng ganitong genre, I don't know why, but I'm enjoying this type of manga! I know it's yaoi and about two guys, pero I don't know but I'm happy! I want more and I can't stop myself now! Mygahd!

I tried to check if I turned gay so I tried watching straight porn, but I still do get a hard on! So does it mean that I'm still straight, right?

So I tried to research about this new "thing" of mine about this kind of stuff and I learned about the Fujoshi and Fudanshi.

I guess I'm now a "Fudanshi" since natutuwa ako sa ganitong genre? But I'm not gay and I don't like or to be partnered with a guy! So for now, hahayaan ko muna ito, as long as walang makakaalam!

I know for a fact na once malaman ng dalawang roommates ko na I'm into this kind of genre now, hindi nila ako titigilan and they'll think that I turned gay!

With just one page of a manga, I turned into something that I did not expected to be. And that day, my friend, that's how I turned into a Fudanshi...

Just to STRAIGHT things out, I'm a STRAIGHT guy who is a Fudanshi!

But... no one knows this, except me!

End of chapter 1