When It Hurts So Bad

[HAWI]

"I failed our people, didn't I?" Hawi asked as she held onto Ruru. She had been scared of never being enough and now her fears were coming to life. No matter what rumor said to her, she knew she had fallen back. Maybe she wasn't the right person for the job, no?

"No, baby, you didn't. You did everything possible to protect them. You did your best and you did well," Ruru said as she looked at Hawi when she pulled back from the hug. 

She loved this woman so much it was breaking her to think that Hawi was falling apart once again. Life wasn't fair to the broken Sicario girl, and it wasn't fair how every time she was building herself back up, everything would fall apart.

"My best wasn't enough, Ruru. Look at us now. Where did my best get us? On a damn shore, thousands of miles away from home, with nothing other than the reminder of how badly I failed.