CHAPTER 24

"Are you sure on your decision?"

I nodded not looking at Aiden that watching me packing my things.Never in my entire life I felt this kind of pain.Hindi ko pa nararanasan ang pakiramdam na parang pinagpipiraso ang parte ng puso ko.When I was young,I always make fun when I saw someone that crying because their relationship ended but I didn't know na ganito pala iyon kasakit.

I stood up at binitbit ang bag kung saan nakalagay ang iilang damit ko.Aiden help me carry my luggages and then put it on his car.Ngayon na ang alis ng flight at nasisiguro kong wala ng makakapigil sa akin.My parents knew about this but they don't know where we were going.I didn't tell them because I knew Ryder would ask them about where am I.

I sighed before I looked at our house.I chuckled bitterly when I remember those memories we made.I didn't regret what happened between us dahil tinuruan ako non kung paano maging masaya.Tinuruan ako non kung paano maging matatag.Tinuruan ako kung paano maging malungkot at kung paano masaktan.At higit sa lahat,Tinuruan ako non kung paano magmahal ng walang hinihinging kapalit.

When I about to enter Aiden's car someone held my wrist and pulled me into hug.I blinked twice not knowing what to do because I knew.The person who was hugging me is Ryder.From his scent and from how my heart beat fast.I let him hugged me for the last time.This is the last time I would see him and this us the last time I will feel him against my body.

"W-why do you need to do this?"His voice broke.Lalong humigpit ang yakap niya sa akin pero pinilit ko ang sarili na huwag siyang yakapin pabalik.Dahil kung gagawin ko iyon ay baka hindi ko na maituloy ang pag-alis.Baka bumalik lang ulit ako sa kanya at sabihing it's all a prank and I will never leave him even it hurts.

"Let go."I said,coldly.I'm trying to stop myself to cry because I feel it,Any seconds from now I'm sure I will break down.He let me go but he didn't stay away from me.

"Remember you are mine.Anything happen you still mine at the end.I will fix myself and I will face you when I completely changed.For the last time,I love you,my love.Now,I set you free."He smiled before he let me go and watch me how I enter the car.Aiden drove the car and for the last time,I saw how he wipe his tears and waved his hands.

Goodbye,love.

"Ladies & Gentlemen, now We're approaching Philippines where the local time is 09:00.  At this stage you should be in your seat with your seatbelt firmly, fastened.  Personal television screens, footrests and seat tables must be stowed away and all hand luggage stored either in the overhead lockers or under the seat in front.  Please ensure all electronic devices including laptop computers and computer games are turned off. "The flight attendant announced causing me to wake my son.He look like his father kaya naman marami ang nagtatanong kung sino ang ama.I just shrugging my shoulder as an answer because it was still hurt me a lot and it still hunting me on my own dreams.

It was 5 years ago when I decided to go to Paris.Si Aiden ang tumayo bilang tatay ni Liam noong nasa Paris pa kami at hinayaan din ni Aiden na gamitin ni Liam ang apelyido niya.Liam was 4 years old now and he will turn 5 this october.

"Baby,we're here.Wake up."I whispered to him and then I saw how he opened his eyes.I remembered HIM because my son's eyes was same with his.Noong isinilang ko siya ay sobrang saya ko.I felt like I'm in the cloud 9 when I saw Liam.It was the most unforgettable moment I had.

I looked at Aiden who still sleeping but I knew he was awake.He just waiting for me to wake him up.I chuckled before I whispered to Liam that he should punch Aiden's face to wake him up and my son was too smart so he does.I laugh when Aiden face crumpled at hinila si Liam para kilitiin.I watch them still smiling.Marami ang nagtatanong kung sino ang ama ni Liam and Aiden always admit that Liam was his own child pero marami pa din ang hindi naniniwala dahil hindi daw sila magkamukha.

Liam didn't know that Aiden wasn't his biological father but I didn't have a strength to tell him the truth dahil hindi ko alam kung magkikita pa ba kami ni Ryder.Sigurado akong malaki na din ang anak nila ni Kim at wala akong karapatang makihati.I have Aiden that will be Liam's temporary father.

Pero kung magtatanong si Liam?I will answer him honestly dahil ayaw kong magsinungaling sa sarili kong anak.Kung gustuhin niyang makita ang tunay niyang ama ay wala akong magagawa dahil desisyon niya iyon at bilang isang ina ay dapat na suportahan ko siya.Kung ayaw siya ni Ryder ay hinding hindi ko hahayaang lumapit ulit sa kanya ang anak ko.I don't want Liam to be sad just because his father rejected him.

When the plane landed,Aiden booked a hotel room for us to stay habang hindi pa naaayos ang condo na binili niya.Aiden gave all of our needs kahit alam niyang wala akong maibibigay na kapalit.He always there for me and my son and I'm lucky to have him as my friend.Marami rin ang nagsasabi na bakit hindi daw kami magpakasal,pero ang sinasagot lang namin ay it takes time.Wala sa plano namin ang magpakasal dahil may mahal siyang taga-Paris.Her name is Chloe and I must say that she is gorgeous.

"Bukas siguro ay makakalipat na tayo sa condo na nabili ko."He said while putting our clothes in a cabinet.I was carrying Liam to make him sleep dahil hindi siya makakatulog kapag hindi kinakarga o kinakantahan.Aiden was spoiling Liam when we are still in Paris.

"Salamat talaga sa lahat lahat,Aiden."I thanked him not only for giving what we need but because of being a good friend to me.Malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanya at hindi ko alam kung paano iyon masusuklian.

"Reto mo nalang ako dun sa kaibigan mo sa CGHM.Serina ba yon?"He asked and acted like he was thinking hard to know what my friend name.Kilala niya iyon dahil araw araw kong tinatawagan o kung minsan ay nagvi-video call pa kami ni Sab.

"It's Sabrina.Susumbong kita kay chloe.Sabihin kong tigang ka dito."I smirked before I put my son on the bed at hinayaang doon siya matulog.When I looked at Aiden,He was frowning like he remembered something bad.I want to asked but I guard my self not to meddle on their personal problems or whatever.

"She was avoiding me."He said,looking down at the floor and his voice was sad.I don't know what happened pero alam kong masakit para sa kanya ito.He always saying how much he loves Chloe at pakiramdam daw niya ay si Chloe na ang nararapat para sa kanya.I envy Chloe dahil may lalaking handa siyang mahalin ng buo at totoo samantalang ako...

"True love takes time.Wait for it until it comes."I just said dahil hindi naman ako magaling mag-advice.Wala akong words of wisdom para mapagaan ang loob nila dahil maski sarili ko ay wala akong magawa.

Kinabukasan ay agad kaming sumakay sa sasakyan ni Aiden para makarating sa condo na binili niya.Nakahiga sa back seat si Liam samantalang nasa Harapan kaming dalawa ni Aiden.He was driving while thinking deeply.If only I could read his mind,I will.Pero hindi ko iyon magawa sa halip,Sa bintana na lamang ako tumingin.

"Anong problema mo?"Maya maya ay hindi na ako makatiis na malaman kung ano ang iniisip niya.Maybe I can help.

"Katabi nating condo si Ryder."He said while staring at me to see my reaction.I was shocked but I didn't let him to read what's on my mind.Bakit ba ganito kung maglaro ang tadhana?Hindi ko naman inaano pero kung makaganti sa akin ay parang ang laki ng ginawa kong kasalanan.

"T-that's good!"I don't know what to say dahil gulat parin ako sa nalaman.Kung magkikita kami ay siguradong wala na siyang pakielam dahil ako ang nagtulak sa kanya palayo.At sigurado naman ako na masaya na sila ni Kim sa isa't isa lalo na ngayon at may anak sila.I just ignore as long as they don't make a trouble.

"What if he will get and owned Liam?What would you do?"Aiden broked the silence between us.I just shrugged my head dahil wala pa akong naiisip na ganon.If ever na ganon nga ang mangyari,I will fight my right for being a mother dahil alam ko sa sarili kong ako ang mananalo pagdating sa korte.

The car stopped infront of a building.It was beautiful but I couldn't enjoy the view because I knew that there's a person living there that I don't want to see.Hawak hawak ko si Liam sa isang kamay habang hawak din naman ni Aiden ang isang kamay ni Liam.Anybody will think that we are a one happy big family but weren't.

At sadyang mapaglaro ang tadhana dahil sa hindi inaasahan ay may isang kotse ang pumarada at bumaba doon ang lalaking ayaw ko ng makita sa tanang buhay ko.Ang lalaking nagturo sa akin kung paano magmahal,magparaya at masaktan.His eyes dropped on me and examined my body.I became concious for a minute but when he looked at Liam beside me,I want to hide my son from him.

"M-my son...."He whispered.