Fear

Lanis. 

Having someone like Beau who is already a very caring person be extra caring is the best thing in the world. It has been three days since he said he was going to pamper me and those three days have been the best days of my life. 

One of the healers came over to check up on me yesterday. There was an obvious shock in their eyes when they discovered that the baby. All this while we both knew but it was never confirmed and now it is even more real. 

I am still not one hundred percent at that place where I have accepted this because this is still as scary to me as it was when I first felt the changes. Two babies, growing inside of me. That is something I just can't get used to.