Please Take Care

Hello, everyone. It's been a while since I have updated my stories and I'm sorry that I only get to update now but as an auxiliary chapter, but do hear me out. 

Just letting you know here that I am feeling okay and that I will update you with what's happening with me and so you will also be aware of this since it is rampant now.

Mental health is real--I know this is true, but I didn't know to which extent until I experienced it. :'(

To make it easier to understand: I am diagnosed with severe depression and severe anxiety.

I have been feeling this since 2018 and have been repressing it, until it came a time that this year, 2021, it overflowed and I couldn't handle it anymore.

Breakdowns are frequent and it's as if I could not see myself in the following tomorrows that I have in my life.

I have everything that makes me happy. My family, my friends, my significant other, my talents, you, my readers, and my job.

However, there is something really wrong that I tend to cry without any reason why--I tend to breakdown anywhere and anytime before I even realize it.

It also goes worse when I'm overwhelmed with work and such and with me taking in everything such as my studies and my writing.

It escalated to the point I sometimes have suicidal thoughts and it also escalated to the point that I started to hate myself and started to hate the things I love doing such as writing and playing games. :'(

Now that I sought help, though, from my psychologist and my psychiatrist, I am feeling better, though. ^^ I am having therapies and taking in meds that help me. I am also resting from work so that I could adjust to the medicine that I am taking in.

I wanted to let you all know what is happening to me so that we could also be aware of our mental health, and the mental health of people around us.

Depression and anxiety vary from person to person. If you know someone who is feeling sad, who is feeling out of it, or whatever, be patient and be there for them. <3< p>

We are flaky, we are sleepy, we are angry, we are groggy... we feel mixed emotions all in one but that doesn't mean that we aren't trying. ^^

We never wanted to feel this way--we are desperate to feel better and we are desperate to get better.

To those who feel the same way as I am and are hesitating to seek help, please take the courage and do so.

I also got scared at first, I really was... but with how scared of what is happening to myself to the point that I don't even know myself anymore, I had to do something.

Do know that you are not alone. ^^ Sending virtual hugs to those who are facing such hard and dark times right now.

Thank you also, dear readers, for taking the time to read, for waiting for me, and for continuing your support. It means a lot to me that you are here.

Do know that when I feel better, I will definitely continue to write. I never wanted to leave you--I never meant to leave you hanging...

I will finish my stories and journey with you all~! You are one of the reasons why I am back to writing even just for today despite the hard times. ^^

Please take care wherever you are~! Let's spread love and support! We are fighters and we can do this! ^^

Love you all!

--MysticAmy