SWEET GOOD BYE

SPADE'S POV

Nasa park ako ngayon. Pinagmamasdan ko lang ang magagandang lights while sitting on a bench.

Now?

I feel at ease lalo na ng masabi ko na ang lahat kay Nathan.

I just need to wait for three more days, to know kung.... Aikka still choose me after everything.

But no matter what her decision is, tanggap ko na....because, that's fate.

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"what do you think Rico? does it suit me perfectly?" I asked him while looking at the mirror.

"yes sir, bagay na bagay po sa iyo" he said while smiling.

"thank you" I said.

Ito na ang araw na hinihintay ko. I'm still praying na kahit ngayong araw lang, magawa ko pa ring tumayo at makita si Aikka for the last time.

Before I left, ininom ko muna ang medicine ko. I don't want this day to be ruined dahil sa sakit ko.

"ihahatid na po kita sir" he said.

"okay, good" me while feeling a little bit nervous.

Sumakay na ako ng kotse at pumunta na sa place that I told Aikka to go in case, na ako ang piliin niya.

The weather is good.

Maganda ang place.

May romantic candle sa gitna ng table and may Dom Perignon Champagne with two glasses sa tabi nito.

Tiningnan ko rin ang ulap....

They're beautiful...

Everything is perfect now.

Hinihintay ko na lang si Aikka.

Well, I'm still hoping na ako pa rin ang pipiliin niya this time. But if not, then its fine.

Lumipas ang 30 minutes, but wala pa ring dumadating.

I keep looking on my watch, until it turns into hours.

"sir....Tara na po?" Rico said to me ng mapansin na wala pa ring Aikka na dumadating.

"another minute pa okay? let's wait for another minute" I said.

I'm just crazy. Di ba sabi ko nang I will be fine, no matter what. Pero umaasa pa rin ako this time.

Habang nakaupo ako doon, mas lalong sumisikip na ang dibdib ko.

Ang sakit din pala noh?

Sobrang sakit pala talaga ang masaktan ng pagmamahal?

"Spade.."

Napatayo ako bigla coz I know that voice.

Aikka's here.

"A_Aikka?" agad akong lumapit sa kanya.

Why she's here? Does it mean ba na....ako ang pinipili niya?

"y_ you're choosing me over Nathan?" mahinang tanong ko sa kanya.

But she didn't answered.

So I guess, may napili na siya...and hindi ako iyon.

"I'm sorry Spade. I'm sorry for not choosing you. I'm just here to let you know that....I liked you...I really do...but mahal ko si Nathan kaya thank you for giving me that chance to be honest with myself. Thank you for helping Nathan to explain everything to me. Thank you...for being cool enough para bigyan kami ng happy ending. And I'll make sure na, that will be the case for you too."

Now ..

Masaya ako na nalulungkot.

I'm happy, because at last, I don't feel guilty anymore kasi nagawa ko na ang bagay na totoong makakapagpasaya kay Aikka.

But I'm sad, kasi...nalaman ko ang totoong feelings niya for me.

"I knew it." mahinang sabi ko.

Then she hugged me while crying.

"Aikka... please don't cry. I don't want to see you crying. I'm supposed to be the one thanking you Aikka" I said tapos iniabot ko ang panyo ko sa kanya.

"Thank you Aikka for the one year, 3 months and 7 days na naging tayo. Thank you for making me feel that I'm special. Thank you... for making me happy and giving me a chance to feel that I'm worth living."

"you really are Spade! you really are" she said.

I smiled ang hugged her again. Masaya na ako.

But this time....I'm having a hard time to breathe na. Hindi na talaga tumatalab ang mga gamot sa akin.

"I guess, it would be the last time that I will see you again so, its a sweet goodbye then."

After kong masabi ang lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa kanya, agad na akong umalis kasi I don't want her to see me pass out. Hindi ko na talaga kaya.

"sir....are you okay?" Rico asked me immediately ng makapasok na ako ng kotse.

"Let's just go home. I guess its my time...." I said.

Because of it, agad akong dinala sa mansion ni Rico.

And pagdating ko doon...I didn't expect na andoon si dad.

"son...my son" sabi niya while crying.

"my old m_man..." I said trying to wipe his tears but I can't coz I can barely move my body this time.

And I'm having arrhythmia again. And its getting worse this time. I can't help myself but to pour out my tears because of pain.

"Son..."

"p_please, just_ just give that_" tapos agad na iniabot ni Rico ang isang navy colored na lock box kay dad.

"yung key po ay_ na kay Rico, kindly..give it to Aikka. Nandyan po..ang lahat ng memories ko with her, nandyan po ang memories ko...for her"

"okay..okay son.."

"and dad, alam mo na ang dapat_ gawin. Take care of yourself at_ laging mong dadalawin si Jenna."

"Spade....just...just don't leave us okay? I'll bring you to the.."

Dad is crying now. Eto na ulit ang time na nakita ko siyang umiiyak.

I'm hearing noises now but wala akong maintindihan.

Dumidilim na rin kasi ang paningin ko.

"Paalam sa lahat. Paalam Aikka. This is the end of my story"