Unacceptable truth..

We are in relation for 1 year. Today is the day when I confessed my feelings to Haize. Today I am soo excited to meet him. I want to spend the entire day with him. He said he was busy with some work when I asked him out. So I am waiting for him to complete the work so we can spend our time together. Today I have planned to go for a movie followed by a restaurant and then we can go to park to see the fire works. I am so excited and is looking forward to it. Today is a special day so I decided to go for parlour to get dolled up. I want me to be a little special for Haize. Although we didn't mention the day to each other I think Haize is also equally excited. Since it sunny outside I covered my face with a scarf. It's a little rushy outside. There are so many people walking here and there. All of them didn't irritate me due to some reason I like everything I saw. Everything seem perfect to my eyes. While crossing the road I saw Haize. I was rejoiced to see him. My happiness vanished within seconds. Haize is with some girl. They are soo intimate that people around them are blessing them as wonderful pair. Yes they look good together but my heart is aching very much. I couldn't control myself I called Haize and asked him where he is. He lied to me.. He lied that he is his house doing some work. Tears started flowing down my cheeks. I wanted to yell at him . Why he was doing that to me. But my voice choked. I cannot utter a word. Then i saw Haize kissing her on the street. Even though we are in relation for one year we never kissed utmost we held hands nor he kissed me on my forehead. The girl with him was his bestfriend. I cannot take it I collapsed there. People around me started coming towards me that is when Haize saw me. He came running towards me with panic before he came I fainted. I don't what happened after that. When I woke up in was in my room with my mom and Haize beside me. Mom was crying I wanted to comfort her that I am okay but I felt very week to even move my fingers. Mom saw me struggling and came close to me she was crying even more and kissed me saying I was okay. I should rest more. Then I saw Haize his face looked worried but I don't want to look at him anymore i closed my eyes. After two days in hospital i was now allowed to go home. I felt much better. During in hospital and in our way back to home mom asked me many times what's the reason for my sudden breakdown. I couldn't say anything to her. I do not want to worry her any more. So I held my tears back and smiled to say that nothing is bothering me. She didn't believe me but neither she asked me about it more. She gave me my privacy to face my own problems. at that moment I want to hug her and cry out all the things that happened but I cannot disturb her any further. The best thing I loved in my mom is her smile I don't want to erase it. Later when we reached home inkenti straight to my room. Its when I burst out to tears. I taught the tears wouldn't end. I slept there while crying..