My Happiness

After coming home we immediately started the Kenji's Wall Project. Reeve prepared the wall and carefully placed the wallpaper with the sky and clouds design.

"It looks nice" I looked at it and imagined what the outcome would be once I placed the frames one by one. Oh my! I can't help but feel the excitement once his one year memories are complete.

I noticed on my left that Reeve was already standing beside me and admiring the view. I guess we are having the same view now. Soon this wall will be filled with memories. I just found myself looking at him. He was smiling and I can't help but smile at him too.

He turned his gaze upon me and smiled. I shifted my eyes downward and looked back at the wall. I can't look at him any longer and eye to eye. If I do I know my face will turn red and I don't want him to see it.

Why am I like this? Am I crushing on him? Pushing that thought aside I know I have to start making this wall or else my thoughts will carry me elsewhere.

"So Sachie do you have any picture to put in the middle?" Breaking the akward moment we are having right now. Like a light bulb suddenly flashed I rushed to my room and took the paper bag that I brought home two days ago.

I handed him the frame that I took inside the bag. He looked shyly for a bit. "Are you sure you wanted this in the middle?"

"You don't like it?" I guess this photo took him for a surprise.

He smiled hesitantly and said, "I liked it... I really do" He placed the frame on the side and took his pencil and tape measure. We decided to go for the adhesive hook and of course we chose the best one. "Is this height okay for you?" It was about his size. He's really tall for me.

"Could you lower it down a little?"

"Here?"

"That's good" then I focused on the photos that I printed and placed them on the frames one by one. I made sure that each of them has their own caption so we won't forget what took place on that photo.

I can't help but let out that artistic part of me. I love doing crafts. It was fun. I enjoyed working on this wall project especially working with someone you get along with.

Reeve placed that big frame in the middle and then after that sat down beside me on the floor together with the scattered frames and pictures.

"You printed a lot photos huh?" He asked while looking at it one by one. I even asked of the photos he had on his phone and included it in my printing list.

"Don't you know how difficult it is to choose? So I handpicked all the best ones. Which do you like the most?" I lined some of the pictures and he checked on them one by one. He pointed the last photo which was taken a week ago where three of us was sitting on the couch. It was a simple photo but we are all smiles especially Kenji.

"Why?" I took the photo and showed it to him.

"Because..." he stopped.

"Because?"

"Because that's my happiness" he stood and then picked one of the frame and went to the wall to figure out where to put it.

"What did you say?" I teased him. I know what I heard but I want him to say it again.

"I'm not repeating! So is this good?" Changing the topic now. I pouted. This guy is hard to read sometimes. He's saying things that I don't know if he really meant it or not or just slip of the tongue.

We were discussing on how to design the frames and agreed on placing it alternately towards the middle. We just filled up the upper most part. We still have one year and may years to fill it up. In the end I think it will look like a picture mosaic.

"Next time let's get different sizes of frames." It's like he read my mind.

"You can read my mind?"

"I do" he answered nonchalantly and turned back to the last frame and placed it on the last spot to make it even.

"I'll make some snacks" I headed to the kitchen to prepare some tuna bread with cheese and a glass of lemonade. He cleaned the mess we made in the living room. He placed on the bag the spare photos and placed it on one side only.

After finishing the snack preparation, I placed the tray on the living room table and invited him to grab a bite. He took one and then sat beside me on the couch. I handed him a towel which I had on my shoulder the whole time and told him to dry his sweat.

"Thank you!" he smiled cheerfully upon accepting the towel. He tried wiping his lower back all though he can't cover it all.

"Hand me the towel and I'll wipe it for you"

"No its okay"

"It's okay." He gave me the towel with a bit of hesistation and he moved so I'll get enough space. I lifted his shirt a little bit and then placed may hand inside while wiping all the sweat. Upon ensuring that it's already dry, I left the towel on his back and made sure that it was properly placed.

He wasn't moving even though I was done. I saw him looking and smiling at Kenji's wall. His eyes was fixed on the big picture in the middle. It was taken during Kenji's first month where we were both kissing his cheeks.

The caption there was 'Happy first month Kenji.' I know he was wondering why I chose this picture.

I know my life isn't perfect but it was happy.

If could gave this picture another title I would love to name it for the same reason as Reeve...

"My happiness..."

11-18-2018