Hilda's Journal (The Great War)

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[A/N: There were no side novel chapter as it seemed that some were expecting, sorry guys but it would be better this way. Trust Thy Daedric Prince.]

[A/N: This is a bit of Lore and Theory chapter so read carefully.]

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That night I took Julls and she slept beside me.

For some reason, I turn possessive when it comes to her.

I know it's not right but I feel like she is mine, she just fits nowhere but beside me.

I love her madness, he scars, her disturbed state of mind.

I am going to build her a safe haven beside me, so she can experience no pain again.

I'll fulfill her every wish too. I will not show any of this but I need to at least make her content.

I don't know the reason behind that!

But my stubbornness forced me to stand and challenge her fate.

Maybe I am wrong!

Maybe I am doing things selfishly.

When I first came to this world I felt some darkness within me.

I didn't understand the reason behind my reincarnation and I was depressed for some time.

Seeing Julls made me realize that I am not the only one who is a misfit.

When I was a child, I was afraid of being found out or anything but Nurina was there for me.

This girl too had a crazy out of the norm start.

Shunned by Nords and Dunmer, she can have no blood relative to relate to. No one to accept easily.

I felt close to her.

Tonight I had to suppress her demons! I had to force her to not act as moody as she was.

She has her own world values and sometimes she would lash at people not caring about what they might think.

Sometimes she becomes cheerful, sometimes very gloomy.

But now she is sleeping beside me and looked so peaceful.

I know my way is a bit broken too but I think we suit each other.

Funny thing is, she was jealous when I held Elishka.

That makes her more adorable in my eyes.

I'll cherish her from now on.

I also think the newly developed spells I just used on her were effective enough!

I was making some progress in 'Illusion' magic and created a Cloak spell that can be called 'Aura of Madness'.

It's a strong version of 'Fear'. The spell can put the area around the caster under energy pressure and carefully selected effects of negative emotions. It was pretty much effective.

Now, I was lying beside the naked sleeping Jull and playing with het hair, we kissed for some time before she sleeps and she is a lousy kisser, I'll make Elishka teach her for sure.

After some time, I went up from the bed and covered her.

I haven't changed my clothes yet. I'll just go with a short for now.

Before the thing with Julls, I was going to go through the notes of The Augur again.

There was this interesting idea of Inner and Outer Magicka Casting.

The Augur was tring to cast spells from inside without focusing a spell on his hands.

It's not like starting fire from the inside or anything. It was similar to the idea of 'Powers' from the game.

To use a special power like 'The Beast Form' for Werewolves or 'War Cry' for heroic Nords, one needed to select it from the power menu the activate it with 'Z'. That's how things went in the game.

In real life, every 'Power' has some rules and different ways to use them. War Cry requires a strong emotional desire to step ahead and absolutely zero fear. It's the manifestation of the willpower of a warrior that enchants his allies and demoralize his foes. I don't know about Werewolves' 'Beast Form' and I am not truly interested in it as a power. Any power drawn of the Daedra to the extent of changing the physical form is a negative energy that shortens the life and weaken the Magicka.

From there notes I also read about different types of Magicka, the Augur called them Positive and Negative, I'll call them Mana and Miasma.

I also had a theory about the different kinds of Magicka and it was one crazy theory based on nothing but guesses.

I thought that Magicka maybe the 'Energy of the Essence' that Magnus used to create Mundus (the mortal world). So, what if this 'Essence' was the essence of every thing.

I am thinking of something like E=mc^2 here. The golden rule of mass and energy. I also was not the brightest person in 'Physics' class but if the Magicka was the energy that created the essence of matter, then I am regretting not studying 'Physics' much better in my past life. Now I'll put that into my comprehension list and hope to have time to recheck it one day.

Back to the 'Inner Energy' and 'Inner Casting'. The Augur wanted to make a way to cast spells the same way as 'Powers', Something like this, if it was applied on 'telekinesis', it can make the caster fly more freely. I also made my speculations and found that there is a possibility, a big one.

The Augur rooted his idea to the theory of 'Bodies of Man'. He wrote that The Physical body is the mortal flesh that binds the soul to Mundus. The 'Soul' as the energy of life that powers up the Flesh Vessel and were the Magicka is stored. And finally, The Astral Body that works as vessel for the soul that gives it shape and connects it to the body.

The ideas were a lot to take in, but I guess he had explained many things in a way or two. He is a damn genius and I must see him soon.

His ideas opened a way for the 'Astral Projection'. One of the techniques that were thought that The Psijic Order used to spy and communicate.

Let alone Telepathy and all that! Can the six school of magic contain all the applications in my head right now?

I'll take a break from using my mind now, I also need to supply my 'Candlelight' spell.

Should I read Hilda's journal?

To tell the truth, I don't want to.

It will just give me more headache and my disturb my plans.

Err... Aaah! Fine, I'll read it!

I grabbed the damn journal and looked at it! Why does the Fire-Manes have such an insignia? Kinda reminds me with House Lannister!

Let's see!

I tried to open it but it won't open.

The Hell!

This note is somehow stuck or something.

Its front-cover was extended and warped from the front of the note to the back-cover but it didn't move.

Okay! Now I'm pissed.

Was this some sort of prank?

Looking at the back cover I noticed some words were written there.

(Blood proof, Fireborn)

What does this mean?

'Fireborn' maybe refers to Fire-Mane.

'Blood Proof' is... gross!

Should I draw my blood on it to open?

What am I? Naruto!

"Dammit! Fine! Here! Have some blood."

Nothing!

Now I look like an idiot!

Looking right and left in the journal, my bloody finger touched the insignia on the journal.

And it opened!

"Calm down! Deep breath!"

Let's see what's in.

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As I pass this phase of my life, I find myself in need to write some sort of reminder about I experience and a way to inform my clan of thoughts if I happened to fall in the coming battle.

My name is Hilda Fire-Mane, Eldest Daughter of Tjord son of Vjord, Patriarch of the Greet Clan Fire-Mane of Skyrim.

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4E-173, 7th of Frostfall;

Me and my brothers led the family's people to aid the Imperial Legion. Our family wanted vengeance for my brother 'Tyr' and relative 'Jonrad' as the two are assumed fallen under the elves' swords.....

My younger brother Tyr, was in a mission with The Blades as he decided to join them following the footsteps of Jonrad Fire-Mane, the son of my father's cousin, the one who was to inherent the clan, unless for the Birthsign he was born under.....

I, with my brothers, rode our beasts and took part in the some skirmishes against the bloody Dominion.......

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4E-174, 12th of Second Seed;

The Thalmor leadership committed all available forces to the campaign in Cyrodiil, gambling on a decisive victory to end the war once and for all. The Imperial City was besieged from every corner. One army drove north to completely surround the city, while the main force attacked the walls from the south, east, and west. The Emperor's decision to fight his way out of the city rather than make a last stand was not wrong, he saved all of us.......

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4E-174, 4th of Midyear;

Linking up with reinforcements marching south from Skyrim under General Jonna. Meanwhile, however, the capital fell to the invaders and the Sack of the Imperial City began.......

We heard later that the Imperial Palace was burned, the White-Gold Tower itself looted, and all manner of atrocities carried out by the vengeful elves on the innocent populace.........

Not far later we heard that Jonrad Fire-Mane was alive and retreated, but he has no news of Tyr.......

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4E -175, 6th of Morning Star;

How can a winter be this cold? We Nords fear no cold, but I guess even we, the Fireborn can be frostbitten....

Some soldiers started deserting the camp, these were dark times indeed.....

Jonrad was raised in rank by Emperor Titus II, we made him drink all that day....

Still, he was acting like a charmer around me....

He also insisted that I would learn magic for healing, not that I don't want but I am the dumbest of my siblings......

Jonrad is obsessed with Fire magic, he insisted that our clan used to have those 'Dragonknights' of the legends, men that can use fire and never get harmed by it. He said that he joined the Blades to get closer to that goal........

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4E -175, 25th of Morning Star;

The Thalmor seem to have believed that the war in Cyrodiil was all but over. They made several attempts to negotiate with Emperor Titus II.....

I don't know what Titus is waiting for but Jonrad was busy and found no time to chat with me, I could only spend time fooling around with an Imperial officer who was a friend of Tyr's, her name was Cassia......

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4E-175, 16th First Seed;

Tyr, that little weasel, actually was alive. He came with a party of an Argonian smuggler, a Dunmer sorceress called 'Laaneth' and mysterious man who never showed his face. Lagate Cassia, took him directly to the Emperor....

His arrival gave us hope! But Tyr had some bad news for the Emperor and he was dispatched again to Cyrodiil with Cassia in his party.....

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4E-175, 29th of Rain's Hand;

The Emperor divided the army into three...

One army, with the legions from Hammerfell under General Decianus, but its movements were were highly secretive....

The second army, largely of Nord legions under General Jonna, took up position near Cheydinhal. This is the army were us Fire-Manes were assigned to...

The main army was commanded by the Emperor himself. And there, Jonrad was assigned...

We are attacking!

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4E-174, 13th Second Seed;

At the 30th of Rain's Hand, a blood bath at the Red Ring began as General Decianus swept down on the city from the west, while we followed General Jonna's legionnaires and drove south along the Red Ring Road.......

In a two-day assault, We crossed the Niben and advanced west, attempting to link up with Decianus's legions and thus surround the Imperial City......

The Dominion was taken by surprise by Decianus's assault, but our side faced bitter resistance as the Aldmeri counterattacked from Bravil and Skingrad......

We held firm and stood bitterly, my clansmen suffered the least but suffering was still suffering.....

By the fifth day of the battle, the Aldmeri army in the Imperial City was surrounded......

Emperor Titus II led the assault from the north, personally capturing Lord Naarifin, the Thalmor Warlord. It is rumored the Emperor wielded the famed sword 'Goldbrand', although this has never been officially confirmed by the Imperial government.....

An attempt by the Aldmeri to break out of the city to the south was blocked by ourside. That day my face got few scars......

In the end, the main Aldmeri army in Cyrodiil was completely destroyed.....

Later that day, we discovered that Tyr was appointed with his party to a dangerous infiltration mission into the heart of the enemy camp way before the battle...

During the infiltration, Tyr was fatally wounded and was taken by Cassia back to the Emperor's personal camp few hours before the start of the battle....

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4E-175, 12th of Midyear;

Tyr made it but his wound was not easy to heal, from what I heard it was caused by some kind of Magical weapon......

Naarifin, that Thalmor Warlord, was kept alive for thirty-three days, hanging from the White-Gold tower. It is not recorded where his body was buried, if it was buried at all. Some people swore that he was carried on the thirty-fourth day by a winged daedra.....

Although victorious, we were in no shape to continue the war. The entire remaining force was gathered in Cyrodiil, exhausted and decimated by the Battle of the Red Ring. Not a single legion had more than half its soldiers fit for duty......

Emperor Titus II knew that there would be no better time to negotiate peace......

The Empire and the Aldmeri Dominion signed the White-Gold Concordat, ending the Great War......

The terms were harsh, but The Emperor believed that it was necessary to secure peace and give the Empire a chance to regain its strength.....

The three harshest terms of the Concordat were the banning of the worship of Talos, the cession of a large section of southern Hammerfell, and disbanding the Blades.....

I was enraged and broke a wall that day, Jonrad said it was okay and he won't lay down his sword.....

Hammerfell, that time, refused to accept the White-Gold Concordat, being unwilling to concede defeat and the loss of so much of their territory. This was the perfect place for Jonrad and me to be...

Some of my brothers followed us, some took Tyr and his Dunmer friend back to Skyrim.

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