Trials of Love: The Romantic Goddess

Hi, I'm the Goddess... The Goddess within this tale.

The one and only being in the story who is omniscient, omnipresent, and omnipotent to everything within… the one above all, the creator of everything and every possibility in the inner world of this very tale itself.

"How can I directly talk to you? Well, this is the one and only limited privilege I have toward your world... to be able to directly narrate my own tale by breaking through the fourth wall… so... yeah, that's how." I said with a bright smile, 'Yep, I can do this too.'

Hmm, why am I talking to you and why do I want to narrate my tale? Well… for that, let me begin my response from an earlier date.

So, you see… tens of billions of years ago, I decided to do something.

I decided to… create emotions inside myself.

To be more exact, by emotions I mean something almost entirely similar to human-emotions. (Though it's a little bit different than that, it's not different by much). And yes… I can put () too.

So, I was saying, you know, since I'm the Goddess of this tale, I can feel human-emotions if I want, and I can stop them completely if I don't feel like it since whatever I WILL, will be and whatever I don't WILL, won't be. (Of course, it's limited only to my own fictional world within the story.)

Oh, let me explain a little bit about my three Goddess traits, Omniscience, Omnipotence, and Omnipresence... First, Omniscience could be said to be the power which allows me to understand and know everything! Second, Omnipotence can be assumed to be the trait which gives me the power to be able to do whatever I want to do... so anything I actually 'Will"... will happen for real! And at last comes the power of omnipresence... which makes me able to exist everywhere within the world of the story, no matter what time or place... with that trait activated, I'll simply exist... everywhere!

Anyway, so I've actually made human-emotions inside myself at that time, and I've also turned my omnipresence and omniscience off at that very time too… which obviously didn't go well with human emotions for many, many reasons, plenty of which you wouldn't even begin to understand, though I still turn them on for a few moments for different reasons from time to time.

Oh, also, since the moment I turned my emotions on and turned my omnipresence off, which resulted with the need to exist only at one place, I had to take a form, so I decided to take my most original shape, the form of a woman... you know, since I'm a Goddess.

Back to the previous topic, the important thing here is that since the moment these emotions come to be inside me at my will… I haven't turned them off ever since, not even once, because I can feel that… even if I just turn it off for a moment… I'm not going to turn them on ever again.

Hmm… why? Well, this too… has a myriad of reasons, which I'm going to get at one of them soon enough.

Anyhow, at the moment when I willed my emotions on, I began to simply enjoy every more and everything else that I did, and I realized how amazing emotions and feelings were.

And so, I began to create different kinds of small or big things which I enjoyed creating… and for years, I continued emerging myself in creating those things.

However, many years later… I suddenly didn't enjoy them anymore, since… they all became too repetitive to me…

From that point onwards, a different kind of emotion began to come into existence inside me… a kind of emotion which intensified as more time passed.

Huh? Why didn't I just simply willed it to be erased? Well… one question to that would be that will you still be you if you erased a part of your emotion which made you into who you are at that very moment.

Well if I Will myself to be still me even after erasing it… I'm pretty sure I would probably succeed! However, I didn't want to! This certainly had to do with me having human-emotions but I just absolutely didn't want to do that. Since I was adamant on dealing with it without erasing any of my emotions!

Anyway, at first, this sense of boredom wasn't as strong as my other emotions like joy, happiness, sadness, love, grief, etc.

Yet, as more time passed, this emotion of boredom began to grow stronger and stronger… to the point, the other emotions broke easily!

Thus, ultimately, when I felt like I could no longer tolerate this sense of boredom which was driving me mad, I decided to think of ways to kill off this boredom inside me.

Something that would be able to fight against this particular feeling.

And with that in mind… after turning a bit of my omniscience on for a moment, I realized the emotion which could possibly fight against this specific feeling… had to be the emotion which was exactly to the opposite side of boredom… and that feeling was… entertainment!

And so, the first decision I made was to create interesting worlds or things similar to that… and… just as I had assumed, at first, it was truly entertaining… however, after a while passed… since there was no one else besides me other than mostly raw materials or raw energies which felt extremely ugly and dead… eventually, it began to feel boring once again!

That made me so disappointed at the time… however, after turning more and more of my omniscience on, I could finally think of a new solution! And that decision was to create things that were different than those ugly, dead, and raw energies and materials… and that led me to the option of creating plants in different kinds of places inside my worlds.