Too Broken to Be Fixed

I like him since time immemorial. He's my friend cousin. We have something in common. Never did i avoided him nor kept my feelings secret. I was never discreet, i'm actually very vocal about it.

Ever since i met Alexander, my life turn upside down that all my principles jump out of the window, and all my standards vanished like a bubbles.

And never did i like someone after meeting him.

Because Creed Alexander Montegro is incomparable...

"If you leave me, don't expect me to accept you again" he said.

"If you're gonna break up with me, this will be the last time you'll ever see me"

"If you still want to break up with me, then we no longer know each other"

I cried. I know that, i already knew that. Still i nodded. He sighed, his eyes were red and jaws are tightened. He took his breath then turned his back on me. He left.

I cried, i shouted all my pain after he left, i punched the floor till my hand hurt and bleed. I pour my heart out.

"Done crying?" i look up and saw him

He gave me his hand....

I took it, little did i know he was guiding me to another depths of hell.

if only i could turn back time, i will never accept that devil's hand.

...

"You are not marrying that guy! For christ sake Naya!" she shouted angrily like her veins are about to pop.

I kept my eyes closed, i'm desperate but i made up my mind.

"Chance is a good guy, you know"

She sighed.

"I know! but you don't love that man, the one you--"

"Stop" i don't want to hear it. We were done, he let go of me completely. I shouldn't stick to him that much. I did that already, sticking to him like a plague but look what it made me.

The years i spent, the efforts i did. All of it are enough.

I stared at my cousin, funny how she's more concerned and pained than i am.

"Stop giving me that look"

when i said that, her tears fell.

I chuckled. "Why are you crying?" i asked. She shrugged and brushed away her tears.

"I don't like this"

I smiled painfully, I don't like this too, nor want it.

"Hey!" the door opened and Silver came. He was gasping, looks like he run all the way from here.

"What did you just announced?!" he spat at me angrily. More angry than Maze.

"I-im getting married" i whispered but enough for him to hear it.

"What the fuck are you thinking Nayaline! you declined your marriage to his brother when your parents are still alive! you declined your supposed to be marriage because you don't love the guy and now, you are f**king marrying his brother?!"

Every words he said pierced through my heart.

When my parents are alive, when i still have my someone.

"Have you gone mad?!Tell me, did he forced you? look we can talk to--"

"Please stop, don't involve him here anymore." i want to plead, i just want then to stop thinking about us.

I just want to move on, like him. I want to continue with my life without much care for the past.

"Silver.." i look at him in the eyes.

"I'm hurting too" and my tears fell.