Only In My Nightmares

It was dark and cold, "ahh Severus, I disappointed in you. I thought you had potential." said the snake like voice, what was going on I couldn't see anyone what was going on I don't remember this place! but Severus was in trouble! I told him not to go! and then I herd his deep voice "my...Lord?" I could hear the stress in his voice. "you've betrayed us Severus..do you know what happens to traitors." the voice was raspy and snake like I could see them both, it was him, the dark Lord, and Severus, no! he was going to kill him! "im afraid that you no longer have any use to me professor....Avada Kadavra!!" NO! Severus!! he was slumped on the ground, cold and lifeless, his eyes empty! he was gone...no I cryed and cryed I scream for him and hunch over his body"please...I need you! Sev get up! please!" sobs escaped my throat. Tears clouded my vison. Someone was shaking me and yelling for me, but I couldn't hear what they where saying. He was gone. Severus was dead and he didn't even now. "We didn't get to say goodbye!" I sob and sob "I told you not to go! Please you have to come back i need you!!!! I scream and cry over his lifless body for what felt like eternity untill everything went blurry and my eyes opened to a dark room. My Mom sat on my bed side, with Sirus standing behind her. She was holding my hand and clearing my hair from my face. A tear slid down her cheek, it was always hard for her to see me after my nightmares. My parents and older brothers often blamed themselves for that night. I once heard my mom the night before I Started at Hogwarts crying to my father, (FLASH BACK)"How could we let this happen to her Arthur!" my dad didn't respond "why did let him take her over to the Potters that night!" "You know why we let him take over there Molly! she missed them. She was raised by all of us and she missed the other peices of her family, we where all like family." my dad started calmly, I could still hear my mom crying. "it's all my fault I shouldn't have let her go over there! I new the Potters where in danger and I let him take herover to see them!" "Molly, darling we didn't know what he who must not be named was planing for them that night." (End Of FLASHBACK) Sirius looked confused, and scared for me. They probably heard all my screaming and everything I said, which explained why Sirius looked so confused, he hated Severus and probably didn't understand how or why I felt so strongly for him. Mom tried her best to calm me, but my breathing didn't calm and the crying didn't stop, I cried into her arm, she new what Snape ment to me, and she new the only thing that would make me feel comfort and safe was seeing that he was safe. Sirus have my head a pat and my shoulder a squeeze and left me and mom. I cry untill I dont have any tears left to cry and in-between my heavy breathes and quiet sobs "I told him...n..not to ri..risk...his life! but...he..le..left me to g..go back! and...n..now.. he's...gonna di...die!" with that I let our another Sob . Mom continued to hold me and rubbed my back, trying to calm me with her words "it gonna be ok baby girl. he's gonna be ok, you'll see him later and it'll show you he's safe." as much as she trued to calm me back to sleep and with her voice, it never worked anymore between the nightmares, about the Dark Lord coming back to power, and the fear of my loved one's dieing. The only person who could ever succeed in making me fall back asleep and stop crying was Snape, and he'd made it clear he didn't love me anymore.

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It's Pretty short but this is the first fan fic I've ever written and there will be more chapters and Future books.

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