[NIKITA]
Carrie looked at the Colonel, and she didn't need him to say anything before she knew he was already disapproving her reasons in his head. This man knew her too well, but he couldn't really do anything to her since she was here for official purposes.
"Colonel, I believe that I am not in the right state to lead my team into a mission; that is also why I came home after the last mission. My brother needs me, and I'm afraid I will be a liability to the team. I need to sort things, and I can't do that when I'm a squadron leader.
"I might lead my men to their deaths, which will not be right. I understand that Commander Xi's task force is personal and somewhat related to what I'm aiming at, so please allow me to join in it," Carrie explained most civilly, making the Colonel just shake his head.