Chapter 20 ( you have my trust )

ROWAN's POV

sitting on the chair beside Natalia's bed alone with my arms crossed, she was still in a lying position and that was because I insisted that she shouldn't get up. I have noticed that she was a very stubborn type and brave. She risked her life to save mine but why, what was she playing at. What game is she playing that she had to risk her life? I sat silently watching her every move and I notice she was trying to avoid eye contact. After a very while, she gave up and aked

" Dude what is your problem " I raised an eyebrow at her question " you've been staring at me since we were left alone and I am having a hard time trying not to look into those eyes," she said

" What is wrong with my eyes," I asked curious about my eyes

" Nothing" she replied almost yelling looking in a different direction. Looking at the lady before me I could only see good, there was nothing evil about her, she was unique and I could feel something special in her

" Natalia " I called

" What " Turing to me to give me her full attention, our eyes met, hers was beautiful, I quickly took away my gaze

" Why did you do it" I saw the confusion in the look she gave me " Why did you save me, and don't tell me that it was the right thing to do, it makes no sense that you will risk your life just because it was the right thing to do "

" because Bengland needs " I was taken aback by her words

" What?"

" Bengland needs you so I had to do something and I didn't what you to die," she said calmly. Looking at her I saw honesty in her eyes

" What makes you say Bengland need me "

" because you make a fine king. when I asked you for help to leave the castle you didn't hesitate to go against your father to help the people, that alone was enough to provide that you will be a great King even if you don't see it, I see it " I was in shock at her words, I didn't know how to reply

" then why did you offer to help the people even when it doesn't concern you "

" who said it doesn't" she became angry at my question

" Forgive me, I just need answers, I don't know if I can trust you or if you are just doing this just to marry me "

" for fucking sake Rowan, I already told you that I am here against my own will " her voice was loud

" then Why " I watch as she calms herself down

" My mother used to tell me that if you can do something about a situation then do something. I know how it feels to lose someone, people were losing their families and I could do something so I did, did I do wrong" she asked and I suddenly found myself smiling at her. She was really special and I understood why she caught my attention from the beginning

" No, you did great" I replied and she gave me that lovely smile" thank you "

" well you should have started this conversation with a thank you " she rolled her eyes

" Should I take it back," I asked

" you can't you already said it " our gazes met and this time neither look away

" I mean it, you were out for a week because of me thank you " I stood up taking away my gaze " you have my full trust," I said to her and she gave me a wide smile " I was about to leave when she could my name

" Rowan "

" yes "

" What happened to the french men " I frowned at the thought of them, remembering the news I got when colin returned " they were gone before the soldiers could reach them " I relied on

" and the workers, what about them," she asked and I lowered my head to hide my emotions

" They kill them all " I heard a gasp escape Natalia's

" I can't believe they did that " she had a low tone like she was going to cry "I can't believe they let them die " I raised my head to look at her, surprised at her words. Did she just blame herself

" Natalia, this wasn't your fault," I said and sat down again, why will you blame yourself

" I asked for your help to leave the palace because I wanted to help them not cause more people to die, and I know that the king is not happy with me for what I did "

" he those have a strong principle about women getting involved in the matters of the men. So he is very angry with you but it doesn't mean that he is not grateful for your help, I mean you did figure out the illness and that saved the rest of the people" she gave a small smile " that reminds me, how did you know about this illness again " she was quite like she didn't expect my question

" oh, oh that " she gave an awkward smile " I read it, in a book "

" and how come I have never heard of this book before "

" A friend" was her response which made Me raise an eyebrow

" A friend?"

" yes, his family are healers, his name is Jonathon, my best friend" the thought of her being best friends with a boy made me frown

" A boy?" I asked

" yes?" She sounded confused at my question " is it wrong "

" yes, yes it is inappropriate for a lady to be that close to a boy " she raised an eyebrow

" you are not okay" she really and looked away

" I am serious "

" you are not my father why do you care " she sounded upset

"your father allows you to be best friends with a boy?"

" my father does not care about me " I got confused at her response, what does she mean by that

" Your father doesn't care " she became quiet for a while thinking of how to reconstruct her words, I knew from the look she gave

" he does, he just really care about who I make friends with, just as long as I am careful " I nodded in understanding

" I see" I stood up " well, you need to rest you are not fully recovered, and when you are strong enough to move, my father will like to see you " she nodded and I smiled at her, with that I left