Thoughts

A thought that caught your attention that turned into a hellish obsession

Sublime, I'm fine, I'm fine

though there are times where emotions rage

Because I try, yet it is not fast enough

To keep pace with my expectations,

To be human is to be bound in a loop

Of imperfection

And no matter how close

I am reminded of the loos and loss and hardship

And yes, I am grateful to be here, to experience,

But I'm human anD

It's hard seeing my thoughts and who I want to be

And living the now as me

And i try to say I'm enough

But every now and then,

I still feel

And it's hard to be human

Because I was so much more before I fell

I console myself by saying, well, that isn't true,

Because the reason i'm here is to experience life,

Because I wanted to

Take it as a gift or a curse,

It's our thoughts dwell

That make it better or worse

-1.28.2020