I’m in love with....

Hi I'm Maria ( from Kevan and Romeo) and here's my feelings on the matter. I like Nen a straight girl, but I also have feelings for Rom( Romeo, Damien) and I wish I could date both but I can't. On the outside I act like all tough and like I don't like him(Rom) but on the inside I just want him to hold me and love me because I'm depressed ( I only get to see him during June and August with no contact the rest of the year) and I just admitted to myself that I miss him