Chapter 19

Life was just messy now, things between Liam and I were good, Viola wasn't too bad to me either, Aaron was the only one who started pulling away but I wasn't too worried about him because I started to worry about Liam again.

There was one night that Liam and I were up really late texting each other, and this is the night that changed me life forever. It all started with a text that Liam sent me. Which made me question the last four years of my schooling life.

Did you know that I secretly liked you in the beginning Paige, and I was so scared to tell anyone about it because I didn't want to loose our friendship.

Wow, did Liam just tell me that he liked me, and more then a friend, this was flabbergasting at first, me thinking how silly we both were because I also liked him, and now it's evident that he liked me back but not one of us did anything, our lives could have been so different right now.

Paige: It's so silly but I also liked you to Liam, more then a friend.

Liam: Omg, then why didn't you tell me, you just pushed me onto Viola, I took it as you didn't have any romantic feelings towards me.

You never told me how you felt, did you just expect me to sit and wait for you.

You never waited for anything or anyone Paige, there was never a time when you were single for me to tell you how I really felt, you started off dating Kent, then after a couple months later you dated Aaron, tell me when was the time?

Wow, he was absolutely right, I was eagerly jumping from relationship to relationship that there wasn't anytime for him to tell me how he felt.

You are right.

I know I am, did it not occur to you that I had feelings for you when I sent you those pictures of myself shirtless, Or when I went to Wildcoast and put that stuffed bear that I won for you in your bag as a surprise, or maybe when I always gave you a valentines gift, even while I was dating Viola, I still managed to get you a small gift.

Liam, do you know how crazy you made me feel for four years, my emotions were all messed up, you told me you didn't want to be friends anymore, you conspired against our friendship, remember with your two stooges.

Well firstly Paige, Viola asked for Aaron's number, they started speaking about us and included me after everything was said and done and the plan to break us up was done, I had no idea and when Viola saw me that morning she warned me to go with whatever she said or she would break up with me.

So you did chose her then.

At the time I thought you were Madly in love with Aaron, he was also madly in love with you so I wanted to give you two space, I managed to stay away from you, but after this December break when I saw you just walk over to us on the first day back and you walked to Viola and hugged her I just couldn't help myself, I wanted you to hug me to, but instead you ignored me and went with Viola, I'm not going to lie but I was all messed up in the head after that.

Liam, you know this changes nothing between us right, because you are now in a committed relationship and so am I, as thrilled as I am right now to hear that your feelings were reciprocated there's nothing we can do, we cannot act on it, not at all.

I know we can't, I don't want to hurt Viola, I love her you know, it was just good to get it all out in the open because I felt like it was dragging me down, and I needed to tell someone. We are almost done with school and I didn't want to leave knowing that I lost a good friend because of such a silly reason.

I also really care about Aaron, and I'm glad you told me, now we can both put this feelings nonsense to bed, lol.

I would have wanted to put it to bed though.

No, Liam, no sexual connotations.

I'm just joking, we can still joke like that can't we.

No, not at all lol. Goodnight now

Goodnight Paige, sweet dreams, see you at school tommorrow.

This was the most bewildering conversation that I had ever had, he just admitted feelings for me, and it felt so great, I was ecstatic, I couldn't even sleep, my eyes refuse to shut, I refuse to go into my dreamland because it felt like my very own reality was a dream right now, how much better could my dream be. How wrong was I, because when I did close my eyes, I had drifted into this alternate universe where Liam and I were together.

In my dream, we were laughing and joking as usual, but he had his arms around my waist, and he held me close to him at all times, in another dream he kissed me, so gently yet passionately, I could feel him slowly parting my lips with his, and his tongue sliding into my mouth, caressing my very own tongue, while his hands cupping my face and his right hand slowly moving down my neck, and sliding to my chest, and just like that I heard a bang, I was rudely awoken by my mom when she swung my door open.

"Paige, wake up, you are going to be late for school." That was my mother yelling for me to get up, why oh why did she have to wake me up from that wonderful dream, but it was just only a dream, no possibility of it becoming a reality, and that stunk, that made me sulk a little more. What's worse is when I flip the covers and move my legs I could feel the wetness between my thighs, I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks now and if I had a mirror I'm sure my cheeks would be tiring red right now, Liam had me tossing and turning in my dreams, that dream was so intense that I actually soaked me panties, I must tell him, about the dream and not the panties though.