Chapter 15

Lies, lies and more lies was all I got from Aaron, fake, bubble wrapped excuses was all that he could spout. Why was this happening to me, why did all the men in my life suddenly desert me, why were they all leaving me, in my head I now started to think the worst, telling myself that I had to change, maybe it was my personality, maybe I was just too ugly, I wasn't good enough for anybody to love, I didn't deserve anybody's love. I just became depressed again, and I could feel this pain in my chest starting to grow, this longing for something I knew I'd never have, longing to be loved by someone. This irrevocable feeling.

Aaron had apologized a million times, he made it seem like I was the reason for ruining the relationship we once had, saying that I put all my time and effort into Liam and Viola's relationship, and I had neglected him and treated him like he was just another passer by in my life. Deep down I knew that was true, I had been so focused on saving my friendship with Liam that I had neglected my very own relationship with Aaron, I knew that was no reason for Aaron to cheat on me, but at that time I was so hopeless and lonely, I needed love and affection, and the problem was that I thought that the only way to fill that empty void was with love and affection from a man, how silly of me to think that was the only thing I needed.

I forgave Aaron, we both made a pledge to stay with each other through good times and bad, and Aaron agreed to delete all the random girls that he had been chatting to, I agreed on focusing all my attention on him. So for a while things went back to normal, we started to laugh and joke again with each other and I felt okay, content.

School had been crazy, being in grade 11 was not easy at all, the work was hard and the pressure was building because it came time to apply to colleges and with the marks that I had been getting I knew I'd never get accepted into any college. In my quest to save mines and Liams relationship I had invested so much time that I neglected my boyfriend and myself. So I tried to study, did all my assignments and made sure my projects were done and submitted on time, things were going smoothly for me, and I was less stressed then usual, but all good things must come to and end, and I wasn't the exception to that rule.