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Gemini POV

I walked into a bar and handed the bouncer a block card….

He immediately gave me a mask to cover the upper part of my face.

Then another came and took me to the secret room. In a place where everyone is free to be themselves.

People who can't face the world. As for what they are.

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Yes, they all are. We who are in this room. But some out of this room. Are imposters.

People you think are perfect. Holy bible holders. Pastors who say that God created only women and men. But they also kiss and have sex with each other.

But pastors are not the only ones here. There are politicians, businessmen, lawyers, doctors and other professions. As long as everyone here is rich.

Everyone looks up to them. And others want to emulate. Because they are supposed to be servants of the church. They are supposed to be faithful wives. But they are the opposite of the people they present to society and the shrine. To make them feel accepted, respected and loved.

Even what the fleshly body craves is of the same sex.

But I'm not here because they're like me, I'm here because. I just really want to see him. The person I first loved.

Even if he turned his back. I know him. Even if the smell is mixed in this place. It's like he's the only one I can smell.

Along with my tears. Is the pouring of memories. Because of. This is exactly where my world came crashing down.

*15 years ago*

"Why am I dad?! Is it for you... is it for you that I don't feel anything?! I have no right to be hurt?!! Your daughter just hit her sisters husband!!" I held my cheek until now I can still feel the strong slap that landed on my face that day.

"Stop." dad ordered.

"Why? It's true!! Sister Agua's husband (spanish for Water/AQUA as in AQUArius) got pregnant with sister Lira (from LIbRA. All five of us siblings were named or named after the zodiac sign when we were born). Not my boyfriend. So why should Albert be responsible for your son's antics!"

"Because I really love Lira, not you."

I tried to deny it in my mind. But his voice spoke from behind me. And it was like I was killed when I turned around and he was the one there.

"Do you really think a real man would love someone like you?" Sister Lira said.

"Albert." I seem to have lost my strength. I sat on the floor when his arm slipped around my sister's waist

"Lira promised me that if you experience failure in love. To wake you up from your celibacy, she will marry me. And because I love her so much. I will obey all her orders. And I am also ready to accept and love even a few more children what he has in others."

I looked at him in tears and begged him to take back those words.

Meanwhile, my flirtatious brother was insulting me with a huge smile.

I wanted to stand up to separate them. Or run away to follow me.

But nothing. I have no strength left. I just stared at them dumbfounded. I feel. My soul left that place before. Especially when they managed to kiss in front of me.

Brother Aris immediately came to me. I thought he would build me up. But he didn't want to sit in front of me.

"You were asking earlier if we thought there was nothing. You don't feel anything." He put his index finger on my forehead. "In this world, the feelings of a disgusting person like you don't matter." while repeatedly pushing my head."Because you are a scourge in society. And scourges have no right to be tanned. Especially to love and be loved. You are just garbage. Do you understand me Gemini?" I don't know anymore. "Gemini, answer! Do you understand? Answer!"Aris managed to slap me.

But I couldn't move anymore. I am not on the side of one of the people in this room. At that time.

Maybe if sister Agua was there. Maybe she is on my side. Mom just stared. She was unable to approach or stop brother Aris or even show sympathy to me. Maybe it's more shameful to have children with a gay man than with a mistress.

Brother Leo came over. But for me it's useless. He shook my body. But I just remained stupid. I slapped him. But my body and heart are numb. I seem to have run away from my own soul.

*Present*

I want to hold it. Hugs and kisses. But I also want to crush and kill him. But why a Mayor like him is here I don't know.

When he turned around, I could still feel the speed of my heart beating.

The useless part of my body is only looking for him.

I felt an arm wrapped around my waist.

"Are you alone?" he whispered seductively. I turned to the man. We almost kissed because his face was so close.

"Yes I am." I replied with a smile and hung up. My arms on his shoulders. And kissed.

We do normal things in this place. Some of them are only side by side if they have sex. The only thing that is forbidden here is to take off the mask.

We let go of the kiss. I felt poisoned. The surroundings are moving. Little by little everyone panicked.

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Earthquake....

The man I kissed earlier has disappeared. I was about to run when someone bumped into me. Reason to fall on the floor.

I felt someone laying on my back. I hugged him and protected him from the people who messed up while saving themselves.

The more I decided to look at him, the more I decided that he would fall from the ceiling behind him. But he tried to support himself so that he wouldn't fall under the weight, miraculously he was still able to protect me.

"Why?" That's not just a question.

Why is he protecting me? So that I don't get hurt. If I was able to hurt him then.

Why do you want to save me from death? If he killed me first.

I felt a liquid drip down my neck.

"Because I love you." even though it was difficult for him to say the words.

If I love him. Why did he do that then? I want to understand.

I felt a sharp object slowly digging into my spine.

I can no longer feel his breathing.

Little by little, that thing was buried in my body. And when my eyes are dark.

I have a request....

I want to go back in time....

Because I want answers to my questions...

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Sleeping beauty wake up...

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Hey! Witch awake!" said a voice angrily while slapping me.

I immediately got up and everyone around me laughed

"You're silly. It's a good rehearsal. Shall we sleep while we practice the play." I couldn't stop my tears from falling.

I'm happy to see him again.

Alex is my best friend. He's gay too. The difference between us is that his family accepts him. Only my sister Agua accepted me completely. Alex died in a car accident. Because he rushed to get to me after I jumped from the church tower where the bell is.

The same day as Albert and Lira's wedding. Together with me fell the pictures of me and Albert and the evidence of Lira and Tonton, sister Agua's husband.

"Did it get stronger? Sorry. Don't-"

He couldn't finish what he was going to say when I hugged him.

"Thank you. Thank you for waking me up." I said even though what I wanted to say was 'Thank you for being alive'.

Our friends in the drama club were worried so they came over.

"Why did you dream?"

I want to tell him the truth. But I know he won't believe it. I tried to stop crying.

"I fell from the church tower. Then when I woke up, my aunt was very angry with me. Because they said that if I didn't jump from the church tower, you wouldn't have escaped with your daddy's car. You wouldn't be die." when I tell stories while crying.

"Stop it. That won't happen. It's the opposite of what happens in dreams." I just nodded. "Ok the drama is over back to work. Because the play is tomorrow." while clapping.

Alex is the director of our play Snow-white and the seven dwarfs.

Continue.....