Fate/illusionary speed

Peace, all I feel is peace, like I'm flowing gentle down a river. I can't see, I can't feel, I can't hear, just nothing but peace. No that's not right I can't see but I can perceive what around me like a sixth sense, I'm traveling through something, going somewhere, there are others too, how did I get here where was I.

That's right I just dropped my brother off at school and shortly after getting home my mum told me to mow the lawn, I was mowing the front when behind me I heard a loud screeching noise, when I turned around to see what was going on. Nothing, there was nothing and now I'm here. I see, did I die, am I dead now, I feel so sleepy, what will happen when I sleep, will I disappear or.

What's that, there's something happening nearby, I don't know what but, I can feel something like two, somethings are colliding far away, I can feel the shock waves, it strange how can I feel them when I can't feel anything or can I feel but there's just nothing here to feel.

I'm immediately pulled out of my thoughts when I sense something coming towards me fast, what is it, it's small and.

PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN, I'm suddenly assaulted by excruciating pain from what I can now identify as some sort of semicorperal short blade flying into me fast and, and the worst part is it's still moving with me along with it rather then going all the way through me it's stuck in my stomach and taking me with it.

I am no longer in the calm river, taken by the knife god knows where, it feels like I'm flying through acid and my entire being is being eroded, however the knife, the cause of all my problems seems to be releasing some kind of energy that is both healing and protecting me.

I have been flying for so long, that it feels like forever, sometimes I sense something that's there but also not there, kind of like when two objects overlap each other in games, one object clips through the other, sometimes it's there and sometimes it's not.

I'm bringing this up because it happened just now and on instinct I grabbed it with my, ghost, smoke, hand, I only just realized, I don't look human right now, I kind of look like a Gastly from Pokemon except transparent at least I think I am.

As I was saying I grabbed the thing and everything changed I feel like I was just injected with liquid energy, not just that everything changed it doesn't hurt to be here any more and I can control my movement there.

Now first order of business is to GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE, nearby I see what looked like a 'something', I don't know how to describe it, it looks like a sphere, cube, decagon, I don't know it looked like a bunch of shapes and yet it doesn't at the same time, just looking at it is giving me a migraine, speaking of which how the hell can a soul have a migraine, screw it this whole situation makes no sense, I give up.

I'm just gonna go to this thing and hope for the best. As soon as I enter it like I'm going through a layer of water like I just broke through the surface of the ocean and what I see shocks me to my core.

Lights, infinite light of various colors like I'm looking into a kaleidoscope of colors, and then I see it a void, a literal hole of nothing, like the darkest abyss and yet I see every single color inside it, like it is everything and nothing, as if, it decides what it is and what everything, IT DECIDES WHAT'S REAL AND WHAT'S NOT, as if reality is an illusion and an illusion is reality. In my shocked state I don't even realize I'm being pulled in, by the time I realize it's too late, I can tell the moment I enter ill cease to be me, I will disappear forever.

NO I REFUSE, then I feel it, that energy from earlier is still there, it will always be there for me to use. So I run of should i say fly away from the void, it tries to suck me in but it can't, the energy is stronger, I can escape I am fast enough to get away, I see I understand it what this is, incredible I saw it in the movie and the show and scientifically speaking it can exist but to think that I would obtain it, the power of the speed force, but it's different from the comics, there's no lightning.

No that's a story this is reality, this is the true speed force, a cosmic energy embodying the concept of speed, faster than light, faster than time, speed. Then it stops, I'm out of energy how, how do I run out of infinite energy and with that thought everything goes dark and I fall.

It hurts, that is my first thought as I regain consciousness, I look around to see everything on fire. My first thought is.

"Am I in hell"

Shocked, did i just speak, looking down I have a body but it is definitely not mine, I mean I'm a 21 year old adult and making an educated guess based on what I can see I look about 8 definitely younger than 10.

"What the hell is going on, where am I, WOAAA"

"ARGG"

What the hell the wall I was leaning on fell behind me, and what was that noise. Curious, I go around to have a look and there I see a kid about as old as me crushed under the wall, no need to check, he's dead, based on the blood and the nail through his skill I can easily see he's dead, all because I leaned on a wall and it fell and he happened to be behind it.

Now that I look at him he seems familiar, where I have seen him before, that Auburn hair seems familiar. Wait as second, hellscape, Auburn hair, 8 years old Japanese writing on that sign over there and I'm 100% certain that's a hole in the sky spewing out mud.

Good news and bad news, good news is I know where I am and anime is real, bad news or good news depending on how you look at it, I'm in the nasuverse, more specifically Fuyuki after the 4th grail war and I just killed the protagonist Emiya Shiro.

"Shit".