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“Save me all your firsts, they're mine to take” I shouldn't be in love with my Bestfriend, I shouldn't attach value to whatever he says at least but it was difficult. He left when he was thirteen without a word to me. I tried contacting him but couldn't reach him, I asked his mum about him — she said he'd gone to be with his dad. He returned five years later, different from the boy I knew.. He came for revenge but what I did, I never knew. He hated me, all of a sudden. My Bestfriend became my bully....
"Have you seen the new forum?"
Anna gushed clapping her hands together excited. I sucked in a deep breath. I couldn't help but think about how my senior year would look like.
I have a strange twang in my guts that I wouldn't be as invisible as I was. It was a feeling. My whole life in Summerfield, I'd managed to be the girl no one looks at twice — that's so great.
I never wanted to be the center of attention in a school like Summerfield, it was more like a dream come true.
Though my freakish glasses and skirts weren't helping matters. Imagine how I feel knowing this year was gonna change my life —hope it's for the better though.
A snap of the finger dragged me out of my thoughts, I blinked.
Anna had a frown on her face — yeah, she was talking about something.
I stared down at the book in front of me and then back to Anna who tilted her head.
"Fine, I heard nothing —What were you saying?" I asked and her lips curved downwards. She does that whenever she's pissed.
I just managed to make the only friend I had pissed off. How good is that on a scale of one to ten?
"Reggie is joining us for Senior year" she said simply but a thousand bells went off in my head.
Reggie!
Reg —fucking — gie!
"What?!" the shriek left my lips before I could shut it in. It didn't sound like my voice at all.
It sounded like a wounded animal waiting for rescue — thanks for that imagery, mind.
Anna had a satisfied grin on her lips, I sat upright pinning her with my eyes.
"You were kidding right?" I asked, she dipped her hand into the candy jar throwing a candy into her mouth and crushing noisily.
"Unfortunately, no Charlie. It's on the forum and the students are excited Reggie would be coming back" she paused, staring back at me with accusation in her eyes "— don't tell me you haven't gone online" she asked and I rolled my eyes.
"If I had gone online, I wouldn't be this 'surprised' " I said right before burying my face into my hands.
Not Reggie.. Why my heart was drumming so fast I felt like dipping my hands inside my chest and pull it out. Five years. How is one supposed to feel on hearing that your best friend crush who didn't contact you for five years is back? Rage right? Why do i feel different?
"— Uh-huh, you're thinking again. You still love him right?" Anna asked and i shook my head.
I couldn't give an answer to that question now. I'd gotten something to bug myself with till Monday when school resumes.
Aargh... I had the feeling.
I peered up at Anna from my glasses, she was munching another candy while she gathered her books. Study period over, I guess.
"Got a date to catch up" she gave a candy filled toothy grin and a pang of loneliness shot through my body.
I managed a smile at Anna.
"Yeah, don't keep Liam waiting" I added and she stared at me with bored eyes.
"Not Liam, Aiden" she said and I nodded. She'd broken up with Liam, a week ago. Guess, that escaped my mind too.
Several seconds after Anna was gone, I still sat in the position I'd been.
Anna was pretty, like very pretty. With brown eyes and that contrasted with her blonde hair. She was the kind of change, guys went for. Let's not talk about her long legs and breasts, she was beautiful but me?
I shook my head and stood up, gathering my books in my hands and taking them to the shelf. I refuse to engage in any self depressing and self deprecating talk.
I'm beautiful, I'm perfect, I'm what the world needs, I..
I closed my eyes, I don't feel like any of it right now. I feel like the hairless cat that everyone looks with pity and disgust.
I walked out of my room shutting the door behind me, I raked a finger through my hair, trying to tame my wild black curls. Mum doesn't like it when I look unkept, in fact, she doesn't like me.
I felt that loneliness seep into my bones, I took a deep breath.
No self deprecating and depressing thoughts, Charlie.
The house was awfully quiet and it meant one thing, Jessica wasn't home. Jessica was my — Uh, junior sister. Well, we don't look alike. Jessica took after my mum, in terms of beauty and all.. And me, I'm just me.. The different child.
Mum wasn't home either..
Everyone goes out without telling me anything. I checked the fridge, I could probably get something to eat. Yeah, like peanut butter and bread classify as food but nonetheless, I took it and returned to my room.
Settling on the bed, I brought out my laptop, logged in on facebook. I typed in 'Reggie Whitlock', I took a huge bite of my bread mixed with peanut butter.
Let's see how far you'd grown Reg..
