DAY-4 { NOTHING }

I wake up with hopes, I really wish this time it works

really tired of not succeeding

I open my eyes and look at my bed clock it says 12:30

THE FU*K, IT'S AFTERNOON

I can't even skip bath this time as I stink

I run a shower fast and Run to classes

I see my teacher glare at me for missing his class again, I just give him a 90-degree bow

then I meet Toby in the hallway he is flirting with some girl in Russian maybe?

I pull him with me

" was she Russian? "

" No"

" why were you flirting with her in Russian "

" I was cussing her in Russian "

"what? why? "

" because I wanted to cuss at her, But I didn't want to hurt her so .."

"weird logic, " I say

I go to canteen as I am hungry

There I see her, Li Na

she looks upset, I mean really upset

I go to her and touch her shoulder

" What happened, why are you sad? " I ask I feel really bad seeing her this side

" JUST LEAVE ME ASSHOLE , Why are you disturbing me ??" she says without looking up

I feel quite hurt .. did that Ning xi talk bad about me , still I try to calm her .

" Tell me what happen I will solve it for you "

" No just go DI*KHEAD I DON'T REALLY NEED YOUR FUC*ING HELP, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND GET OU..." she was screaming at me as the whole canteen watched, I obviously felt bad

she stopped screaming after she saw me, she looked quite shocked.

" WEI BRO, let's go coach is calling, " Toby said probably saving me from further humiliation

I just give her a hurt look and follow toby, she looked like she wanted to say something but I just leave

maybe. Maybe we were never meant to be together.

that explains my 3 failed confessions

I just wanted to help her feel better, Make her feel happy but she ...I am really hurt

I just put all my frustration and anger on my workout

" Bro enough, you will get injured we are just 3 days away from finals " I stop after listening to Toby

I wash up after the practice at school and then I go to toby's dorm instead of home

"Bro, Don't feel sad " Toby says

" How can I not be, I fu*king love her already, " I say

" dude .."

" Just let me sleep, "I say as I Sleep on his bunker for the night

I am feeling like shit but I still love her

And I am not giving up until she rejects me on my face

I still have the energy to fight

I still have

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NEXT CHAPTER: DAY-5 { NOT GIVING UP }

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