I don't understand

Huang yize laughed bitterly and sighed in his heart. He still cared too much, and his heart couldn't take it. That was why he guessed at the wind and rain. He couldn't figure out anything else.

He still cared too much, more than he could have imagined.

Huang yize gently patted Yun Bilu's back. He wanted to explain a lot, but he couldn 't.

He only looked at Yun Bilu with heartache.

He had thought that she was leaving and would not come back. He had thought that she regretted it and that he had let her suffer all these years.

With these thoughts in mind, he felt as if he had fallen into a Glacier. His whole body was cold, as if he couldn't hear the sounds of the outside world.

He really couldn't stand Bilu's fright.

It seemed that he must not make this girl angry in the future. If she were to be angry with him and wanted to leave, he would go crazy.

If he went crazy, he was afraid that he would hurt Bilu.